Disorderland By Dr. Ayesha Khan & Jesse Meadows

Tidings, ghouls! Gather round to listen to a demon (Jess) and a demon clown (Ayesha) discuss a shared love of horror. We talk about how microdosing on fear through film can be grounding, how the genre uses disability and madness for cheap shock value, movies that subvert those shitty tropes, and all the big, existential questions horror movies ask us to grapple with.
!! SPOILERS FOR: Hereditary, Grave Encounters, War of the Worlds, The Babadook, The Power
Show Notes
* More on Jesse’s Self-(S)care Routine
* Ayesha’s post on microdosing change
* Horrible Heroes: Liberating Alternative Visions of Disability in Horror by Melinda Hall (the paper Jess mentioned in Disability Studies Quarterly)
“horror fiction presents the opportunity to dis-identify with ableist culture. Horror, when it distances the audience from what is taken as the natural order, may also allow us to encounter disability differently. Indeed, it can allow us to be horrified by ableism”
“A horror audience ideally identifies with protagonists and is horrified by what those characters find horrifying. In the work of both Burton and King, the audience is drawn to identify with the traditional outsider, the person rejected by the social world or considered interstitial and unnatural. This outsider sees the decaying and deadening communities around them as the terror.”
“If we fail to accept vulnerability and incorporate it into our understanding of political communities, disability will always be the monster under the bed. Ironically, the horror genre, by posing new monsters in the social and its exclusions, can provide a ladder to grander inclusion. Empathizing with "monsters" for whom exclusion is typical, draws the vulnerable forward and prepares us to challenge ableism politically.”



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Jess and Ayesha discuss a New York Times article that wants us to think all our relationship problems are caused by an undiagnosed brain disorder.
Tangents include: navigating conflict in relationships without reducing our loved ones to a diagnostic label, the usefulness and limits of the word “neurotypical”, how very not cute those #ADHDWife TikToks are, misapplying the concept of “object permanence” to relationships, and why we keep forgetting to put the laundry in the dryer.
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Jess keeps getting Instagram ads for some probiotic supplement that’s supposed to cure depression — luckily, we have an in-house microbiologist to consult! Ayesha critiques the studies behind Neuralli, talks stressed-out microbes, and explains why trying to fix social problems with one patented microbe is never going to work.
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Are you eating enough blueberries to optimize your dopamine? Did you make sure to take a timed cold shower this morning after your Peloton workout to increase your neurochemical satisfaction by 500%?? Are you manifesting hard enough???? FIND OUT TODAY! We’re taking a dive into the world of ADHD Boss content on TikTok, a pseudoscientific iteration of some very old bootstrap brainwash.
LINKS: 
Neoliberalism and the Commodification of Mental Health paper
Capitalism Loves Neurodiversity, As Long As It Is Profitable (from Ayesha’s newsletter)
The Capitalist Origins of #Manifestation (from Jesse’s newsletter)
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What’s it like to be a survivor of psychiatric oppression? What was the a-ha moment that made you see the system for what it was?
We asked our listeners recently and got some great responses, a few of which you’ll hear in the beginning of this episode, and then we talk to psych survivor Maggie Leppert (@thebooksmartbimbo) about psychiatric gaslighting and wokewashing, why talking about informed consent is not med-shaming, how psychiatry co-opted anti-stigma work from survivors, and her work on Mad in America’s Suicide Hotline Transparency Project.
* Follow Maggie on Instagram: @thebooksmartbimbo
* Find the Suicide Hotline Transparency Project Spreadsheet here and more information about the project here
* Join the MindFreedom International Shield Program, which uses “mutual support to protect one another from unwanted coerced psychiatric procedures.”
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Ayesha explains what’s wrong with all these genome wide association studies that keep saying they found the ADHD genes (or the schizophrenia genes, or the bipolar genes, or the autism genes..)
We also get into the ways that capitalism skews scientific research results, why racists love genetic research so much, and what responsibility scientists have to question their questions.
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