Subscribe to Mamamia When Australian Idol first graced our television screens 20 years ago, audiences fell in love with a 21 year old 'Millsy', a larrikin with blonde highlights, an eye brow piercing and an incredible voice. In his personal life, however, Rob Mills relationship with alcohol, anxiety and the repression of his sexuality meant that life wasn't always smooth sailing. But these days, Rob is an open book. He has a flourishing career in musical theatre, and has written a book about his life and what it means to be a man in Australia. From his problematic first film clip, to the moment that led him to throw a punch at someone (twice), and now finding love, Rob is unflinchingly honest and open. This is Rob Mills' story. THE END BITS: With thanks to Rob Mills. Buy his book Putting On A Show, and see & Juliet. Feedback? We’re listening! Call the pod phone on 02 8999 9386 or email us at [email protected] Need more lols, info, and inspo in your ears? Find more Mamamia podcasts here. CREDITS: Host: Claire Murphy. Claire also hosts Mamamia's daily news podcast, The Quicky. Executive Producer: Elissa Ratliff Assistant Producer: Emmeline Peterson Audio Producer: Madeline Joannou Mamamia acknowledges the Traditional Owners of the Land we have recorded this podcast on, the Gadigal people of the Eora Nation. We pay our respects to their Elders past and present, and extend that respect to all Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander cultures. Just by reading or listening to our content, you’re helping to fund girls in schools in some of the most disadvantaged countries in the world - through our partnership with Room to Read. We’re currently funding 300 girls in school every day and our aim is to get to 1,000. Find out more about Mamamia at mamamia.com.au  Become a Mamamia subscriber: https://www.mamamia.com.au/subscribe See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.