“When I heard you were not allowed in the house and had to sleep out on the porch, I could not help but to cry. I too grew up as an unwanted child and I know exactly how you must have felt. It is unthinkably painful. You though say that you made an amend with your mother by having your own unwanted non connected child, I believe the pain was real and affected your life tremendously.
I chose not to have children because I was afraid I will be like my mom and create another human being who would have to go through the same terrible pain I had to go through. I don’t regret it til this day for the choice I made. I have long ago forgiven my mother but I have not forgotten what she has done to me physically, mentally and emotionally. It took me a long time to rediscover my true self. There was not enough time or energy to raise a child when I myself was not even truly born yet.
Now I am a fully grown up woman but too late for having children and help other people’s children and doing my best to bring the beauty to the world as an artist.
I thank you for your opening up to larger public. I now feel stronger. That is what teachers do to make student more confident and assured. You are a true teacher.”
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