the10ninety Mason Sawyer/ Sam Josie

Went to New Jersey to interview Sara who lost her dad, Kurt Kelly to cancer. Sara had to watch her dad suffer for a really long time. One thing we talked about was how she knew her dad was going to die, could be any day, but when it happened, she still wasnt ready. Nothing can really prepare you for the emotions and feelings of losing a loved one that is so close to you. Sara was also physically shaking a lot through this podcast because she has not talked about her story. Which is silly with her having her own podcast about grief. Focusing on the "we" like Sara does is inspiring. Focusing too much on the "we" can lead to not enough attention and focus on the "me". 
It was so cool to be able to let Sara tell her story of her father and focus on her pain.  Her dad was such a cool guy and reminds me of my brother Race. He faught to the bitter end, he faught for every second he could get with Sara and his Family. Thank you Kurt for your example,  R.I.P. 

On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason talks with Jana White.  Jana has been a high school psychology teacher and cross country coach for over 20 years.  She has trained as a triathlete for most of her life and completed an ironman.  Jana is a badass.  In 2014 Jana lost her father and mother, Hubert Issel and Alana L. Uibel to a side by side accident.  Jana's son Cooper and niece Evelyn were also involved in the accident.  Jana worked as an EMT prior to the accident and talks to us about what she did to help save her son's life.  Cooper suffered a traumatic brain injury from the accident and his recovery is an amazing story of turning trauma into triumph.  Jana talks to us about helping her kids work through life's challenges and never giving up.  Jana talks to us about the accident, her journey with grief, and the experience helping her son Cooper with his recovery. Jana is a true hero, not just in that terrible moment with her family, but ever since then, her 90% is inspiring. 

"You may not be responsible for getting knocked down. But you're certainly responsible for getting back up." -Wally Amos
Seth Gehle was not responsible for his dad being in prison after trying to kill his mom, his mom being a drug addict and having addicts come and go as they pleased in and out of Seths house and bedroom. Seth found comfort in a adult friend who provided attention, food, shelter and safety. 
And then this adult "friend" ended up sexually molesting Seth over 300 times as well as raping him. 
Seth was not responsible for many things in his life, but it is his responsibility to get back up, and I'm not sure how he does it, but he does. 
Some parts of this episode are gross and will make you sick to your stomach but Seth deserves a place where he can talk about his trauma and all the details that come with it. Imagine being raped as a young boy, and no one wants to hear you talk about it. Not even the good guys want to hear you talk about it. Well, that's dumb. I am glad you felt comfortable sharing your story Seth. Love you man. 
 

This month is National Child Abuse Prevention month. Zeke Pike is 6'4 and has lots of muscles, he was one of the top football recruits in the entire country going into his senior year. Could have gone anywhere, chose Auburn because Cam Newton just won the National Championship and Heisman trophy when Zeke was deciding where to go. He was told he was going to be the next Cam Newton. 
Zeke opens up about how he got into drugs and self-destructed his opportunity with football time and time again. Zeke Talks about how he was molested as a child and what that demon he kept buried for so long turned into. 
If you think avoiding your trauma, not talking to that demon you have within, will cause it to go away, you are wrong. It's just getting bigger and stronger until one day, it will take over and consume you. Zeke is a good example of that. Thanks for opening up Zeke, love what you're doing with your 90% now. 

In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason talks with Samie and Andrew Hardman.  On February 10, 2022 Samie and Andrew lost their son Drayke Andrew Hardman to suicide. They talk about Drayke's love for basketball, his kind heart, the day of and the battle in the hospital while Drayke was in a coma, the Hardman's journey with grief, and what we can do to help kids who are being bullied.

Jillian Tinkel lost her husband and son in a car accident nearly a year and a half ago. She is simply a hero of mine. After seeing and talking to people like Jillian I have felt much less alone, much less crazy, and much more normal. It also kind of gave me a type of measuring stick I could look at. People like Jillian and Kuri Bolger who had had on previously, they are kicking ass. Jillian somehow is back at work as a teacher at the same school her son went before he passed away. Not sure how she does it. I basically do public speaking gigs and podcasts and in between those moments it's a real struggle. In bed a lot still. Jillian's story inspired me to get a job, so I don't mope around so much. I am now a pool boy as my day job and I love it. Thanks for your example, Jillian and so sorry for your loss of Randy and Korbin.