Cynthia Robinson came on the pod and completely shifted Ryan and David's dynamic. This is good. Very unhinged episode. I think this is excellent for us. We broke down Jonathan Glazer's "Sexy Beast", and our slutty reasoning behind picking it to review. Ryan tells us his biggest acting/career related regret of his 20's, and we talk about the roots of our deepest egoic desires and whether they're worth following. ALSO. Our experience being in our mid 30's at Adult Film, and in this industry in general. Expectation, and things we would have done differently. Oh. and we even talk about everyones favorite channeled non-physical entity Abraham Hicks! This is a good one. Time Codes: 2:40 Sexy Beast Conversation begins.  5:30 Why’d David pick this movie 9:00 Surprising characters qualities and casting  13:00 How we pick the movies to talk about and differences in our tastes Types of movies going forward 19:40 cultural/film context around Sexy Beast 21:20 Ryan’s favorite film subject  24:20 Brief ‘Irishmen’ discussion 26:40 Sensitive movie mobsters and what we’re projecting on to them. 28:45 societies expectations of men… and are they real.   Who actually punishes young men for vulnerability?   37;44 Cynthia loves making guys mad.  Thoughts around jealousy and acting out in a relationship.  41:10  Getting older and AF.    Being 35 and not having ‘MADE IT’ 42:30 Ryan’s biggest regret in his 20’s.  Art vs businessmindedness 45:00 Actual timeline of a career.  Missing benchmarks.   46:22 Trap of class and community validation. 48:00. What are we actually in control of?  Leaving a body of work…   What is the “Meaning” of Adult Film? And defining meaning.   52:00 Why do we want the things we want? Should we follow purely egoic desires? 56:00 Difference between Ryan and David’s identities or non-identities as actors 58:30 Not trying as a defense mechanism to avoid heartbreak 1:01:00 Doing something for the sake of the doing. 1:04:00 Lil Abraham Hicks//manifestation debate 1:13:00 Very interesting conversation that I will not include in these notes. 1:14:00 Sex and The City discussion.