“Dr. Phil I enjoy your podcast and your TV show. It’s amazing what you can do for people. I am going through a lot of grief myself, I lost my daughter just two years ago at the age of 25 due to two cell non-Hodgkin’s lymph Phoma. At the same time I was going through two major surgeries lost my life twice during a 12 hour surgery just to live long enough to bury my daughter. I am now disabled on way too much medication in my eyes. It’s like I’m grieving for my daughter and myself at the same time the outlook doesn’t look great. I have battled with depression for many years anxiety PTSD. I go through bouts of not wanting to live anymore. I see a psychiatrist and a psychologist it doesn’t seem to be helping me maybe it’s them and not me or maybe it’s me and not them. I don’t know what to do I don’t know how to feel, right now I just want to be numb. I often ask God why did you save me and not her she was my everything my only child and she only lived long enough to see her daughter turned one. I’m to the point where I make bad decisions I’m not happy with my life which makes my depression worse I just want to disappear. If you can help I would greatly appreciate it because I was not raised by a great family lots of abuse my parents didn’t want me. And now at the age of 47 I’m still learning on how I should act and react. I say things sometimes that make no sense or hurt peoples feelings and I don’t understand why I was never taught the right way to live. I’ve been mentally physically and sexually abused since I was three until I was in my 20s with the last rape. What do I do I don’t understand and it’s just getting worse. I apparently pick out bad relationships that doesn’t help me. I can’t afford to live on my own but I want to be on my own just alone I can’t trust anyone to get very close to me anymore. Thank you for listening. If you can steer me in the right direction . I now have grandchildren and I don’t want them to think how I act and react is normal. Thank you, sad in Indiana (765)315-9182”
cleta lynn via Apple Podcasts ·
United States of America ·
05/02/19