Are you continually needing a sign from God to keep your faith? Do you quickly start to doubt when there doesn’t seem to be anything mystical and magical happening for you? Jesus’ disciples were that way. They would have a front row seat to a divine miracle, then walk into the next problem forgetting what they had already witnessed. Jesus had proven his power among them, yet the next moment they were still freaking out. With great patience, Jesus teaches them to trust him between the miracles. Isn’t that where you are? You’re just between the miracles. Girl, you have seen God work in your life before. He’s gotten you through impossible things. He’s supernaturally guided your steps on a path you couldn’t see and it’s the only possible explanation for how you got here today. Without him, you would have never made it, and you know it. But now you’re waiting on that next miracle. You’re here where things have gotten quiet and nothing seems to be happening. You don’t see God working. You don’t feel him moving. You haven’t heard him speaking. So now, you’re kind of wondering … God, are you going to do something here? Do you see what’s happening? Have you heard my prayers? Do you care about me still? When you face the next problem, do you forget what God did for you with the last problem? Do you suddenly get spiritual amnesia, discounting the personal experience you’ve already had with the miraculous ways of God? When you forget, you freak out. And when you freak out, you leave no room for faith. You see, faith and ‘freak out ‘require the same space. When your faith grows, your ‘freak out’ has no where left within you and it must leave. However, when your ‘freak out’ increases, your faith is left without a place to reside. Seriously, have you noticed how your faith journey has you so much calmer? Have you noticed you are responding so much better than you used to? Girl, those thoughts of yours are getting so much better! That’s what faith does! And sometimes we go through our ‘freak out’ phase where we stress and worry and make everything worse in our head. Yes, where we miss all we already have and all we could do, because we’re hype focused on what we don’t have and what we can’t do. But, Jesus is so patient with us, knowing it takes time and experience for faith to grow. So, he keeps letting us see his power at work so we learn to trust him. Then, just like when you were learning to ride a bike as a little girl, at some point the training wheels are taken off and you’re practicing balancing on your own. This space between the proof of God’s power at work in our lives is where we’re learning to balance our faith. With practice, one day you won’t have to continually SEE God working to just know that he is. You won’t have to ask for proof of miracles to know you’re surrounded by the miraculous. You won’t freak out, you’ll naturally respond in faith. And that’s how God is growing each of us. Jesus’ disciples were on this same journey, and we see them fail. In Mark 6, we read about a crowd of thousands of people gathering to hear Jesus teach, and Jesus decides he wants to feed the crowd. The only problem is, there’s not enough food for all these people. In fact, the only food in this crowd of thousands was the lunch of one boy, 5 loaves of bread and 2 small fish. We’re talking crackers and sardines here, my friends. And Jesus takes inventory, then says to his disciples, “You feed them.