This is the first time that curator, Sunshine Wong, has reflected on her PhD: Beside engagement: a queer and feminist reading of socially negotiated art through dialogue, love, and praxis. Completed in 2019 at the University of Wolverhampton, this is a theoretical exploration of curatorial practice and commissioning inspired in part by some bad experiences Sunshine had when working as a freelancer. She had hoped doing a PhD would provide her with clarity but also some camaraderie since she had recently moved to the UK. But in fact, she found the doctoral process isolating, more anti-social than social. She also felt ‘unmoored from her practice’ and suffered impostor syndrome. Focusing on reading about theories such as relational aesthetics disengaged her from curatorial practice, however as she worked through her ideas, she developed a perspective that resonated with her own experiences: embodied criticality. She realised that whatever you do as an artist in social spaces you will never fit in; it's all about negotiating for your place. The relief upon completion was like ‘taking skates off after a long time and realizing you've forgotten how to walk’. Knowing she needed to plot coordinates closer to home, she started a group for slow reading called 'too long; didn't read' (tl;dr) Sunshine still wants to do research but slower and more collaboratively, and as a parent now, she faces a different kind of time pressure. She’s enjoying working on BLOC Projects in Sheffield and so her PhD does have an afterlife in that it is infusing her practice and has helped her to think through agile responses to COVID-19. Her reading group has inspired a webinar series, Harsh Light, encouraging artists/practitioners to talk about the work behind their work. Another theme that she has been developing is taken from her third chapter on taking a critical look at care, and its urgency; how care is part and parcel of social practice, and how art projects can fill in some of the gaps.  Links: Sunshine Wong's website  Sunshine Wong's PhD Thesis  TL;DR Bloc Projects  Harsh Light