Money. Fame. That nagging feeling that you might have given up everything you believed in to get the one thing you wanted.  In this week’s confession, we hear from a feature film writer who experienced all this and more. Well, maybe not the fame part. And… not a ton of money, now that we think about it. But they definitely sold out for a glimpse of Hollywood glory. “The whole ‘artist’ thing – whatever I once felt like I needed to say – that was completely gone. I was ready to make a deal. A thousand bucks for the option, and I was in.”  The deal seemed like a great idea at first. They survived development hell, got to call themself a professional screenwriter. But once the film finally got the green light, they learned selling out has its own price. “So many things were happening. They were picking locations, hiring a DP, holding auditions – and they cast [BLEEP BLEEP] as the lead! But I barely got to see any of this. I just heard it was happening through the grapevine. In essence, it was like my part was finished.” In this episode, we discuss: 1.    How to manage FOMO when the movie you spent years working on is being made without you 2.    Why screenplay options should really be more than a thousand bucks 3.    How to make the most of your three days on set when the director is crying and the star has locked himself in his trailer We wrap up this episode with a shoutout to some industry professionals who saved our butts more than once while we were working on location in Toronto – the transportation crew! These folks don’t often get a lot of shine, but they should! They start work before anyone else, and their days don’t end until everyone gets home safely. Thanks to all the transpo pros out there for making Hollywood a happier place!  If you know someone who deserves a shoutout, or if you have a story you’re dying to get off your chest, let us know on Twitter or IG @fessuphollywood.  And please leave us a review and rating here! We’ll be back in two weeks with another episode of Hollywood Confessional. Other episodes we think you'll enjoy: “The Comeback” - A fearless aspiring filmmaker scores a job directing a studio feature right out of college. But when it turns out not to be the big break they expect, they must find a way to stay in the game through 25 years of diminishing returns. “The Porn Car” - A veteran industry pro tells a zany tale from behind the scenes of a well-known TV show, navigating cocaine-fueled disasters and encounters with nude adult film stars while trying to keep the production running. Connect with us: Instagram Facebook Twitter Website Hollywood Confessional is a Ninth Way Media production, produced by Meagan Daine and J.R. Zamora-Thal. Sound Effects and Music provided by Zapsplat and Pixabay. Keywords: How to Break into Hollywood, Entertainment Industry Jobs, Entertainment Industry Podcast, Screenwriting Podcast, Filmmaking Podcast