“Sorry it’s gonna be a long one…
I became a mom 19 years ago, I was left to raise her on my own. I was 18 and just one year out of high school I had nothing, still lived at home with my mom and was scared. That one promise we all make to our kids, I’m going to be a better parent then what I was offered. And my mom was a good mom worked herself in the ground to give us what we needed and never wanted for anything while tackling being two parents at the same time. So I promised I wasn’t gonna yell, complain, nag, and that she would have family and cousins and the traditions we missed out on because we moved over 500 miles away from ours when I was a pre-teen. That we would have Sunday dinners, and goofy trips to Walmart, popcorn fights at the movies. But I didn’t get to offer any of that instead I retracted to my comfy self and was exactly the samething I promised I wouldn’t be. My kids are now 20 (self adopted her friends of my oldest while she was in foster care and we became family), 19 ( moved out the night of graduation bc I told her to come home and she wasn’t staying at guy friends house), 18 (moved out 2months after coming back home from behaviorial center to work on her, she was 17.5 she disowned the new person I was trying to become bc it was fast enough progress), 15 (poor think is stuck for 3 more years with me, my thinking is bc I except
Who they are and not and not tell them it’s a phase) and my son (fictive-Kin wanting to adopt but judge won’t relinquish parental rights) 4 year youngin who has shown me every where I messed up, missed, ruined, overthinking the overwhelm areas in my other children.
I first heard of you durning Jennifer Roskamp similfy you summer summit but since my work schedule is graveyard I record that day bc I was exhausted I was reading and receiving all you up lifting emails and then it clicked like all the stars aligned and that was it you were there bc I need to become the person I always promised to be and I snapped out of this trading water stage that I have be drowning in for 20 plus years. And I had headphones in at my desk bc the kids were watching tv and all of a sudden ur podcasts started playing and my phone was in the other room and all I can fully remember was are you exhausted from yelling and constantly have to remind over and over for your kids to do and I cried bc it was a rough week (been a rough year) I just got done yelling at the kids to be quiet and do this or that and at that moment I realized I had wasted the best years of my babies life’s and it was that podcasts that changed me. I haven’t had to tell, ask twice or beg my kids to spend time with me. I don’t know what you did but thank you. Thank you thank you. And sorry it’s all over the place but it was ur podcasts that snapped me in place to become a better mom!”
BGCGEGSR via Apple Podcasts ·
United States of America ·
08/16/23