“We put ourselves in glossy brochures looking the perfect picture of what we want the public to believe we are. It wasn't until it all exploded that I really realised what was going on in my head.” – Senior politician Jami-Lee Ross’s breakdown in late 2018 was played out in the glare of constant media attention. He walks us through his year from hell. * Content warning: Strong language; discussion of suicide. * If you want to talk to a trained counsellor, call or text for free to 1737. * www.stuff.co.nz/outofmymind