“I remember the doctor saying to my parents: ‘Your son Egan? He's not coming home. He’s completely untreatable.’ The other thing I remember was the look in my parents’ eyes. It was the look of someone's hope dying.” – Egan Bidois sees and hears unusual things even as a child, but in his teens the visions become intolerable, and his life changes course forever. * Content warning: Strong language; discussion of suicide. * If you want to talk to a trained counsellor, call or text for free to 1737. * www.stuff.co.nz/outofmymind