What is going on spiritual dope? I have no idea which microphone this is even using. Is it using the microphone on the phone? Is it using the microphone from the car? I don't know. What I do know is that it is dark out. I was trying to think it was funny because I was going to be like a dark AF. Finn was telling me that on YouTube if you swear within the first 8 seconds or 8 minutes, 8 minutes seems like a really long time to not swear. But if you do that then they won't cut you off. They are like no, you can't do that. You have some type of strike. It wouldn't be the first time I have gotten a strike. It is dark out man. It is winter. Before 6 o'clock was up the break of dawn for something to change. This morning I headed up to New York from the Philadelphia area for work. The train station that I am using today is right across from this really nice kind of like, you think of Shakespeare and the homes that were built then with the big timbers and the stucco plaster. Really cute little community like that. That is right across from the train station. Some 20 odd years ago there was also a Dunkin Donuts there. At this hour we were actually dropping people off and headed home. That was my first, I think, I want to say my first rave, air quoting rave party. Where did we go? We went down to Baltimore from the Philadelphia area. I went to a club called Rise which was in some CD part of Baltimore, warehouse area. I had to chuckle because here we are 20 odd years later where today, this is the same place, same time of day, different functions, different things going on. On my way here today too, on my way to this, I was also thinking about an ex-co-worker of mine who I learned recently had passed away within the past seven days. That is a lot to take in. We always wonder whether or not we are kind of on our path. Are we living our best life? Are we living the highest and best versions of ourselves? Are we being of service? Are we doing all the things? Are we the perfect parent for our children and all this other shit? Most of the times was probably not. I also thought about the fact that this gentleman, he died of cancer. He had a really rough run of it. What is it like, I don't know more but thinking, this isn't always fun and games in our lives. What is it like to know that you are dying and that there is nothing you can do to stop it? There is nothing you can do. You are not in a condition to accelerate it. To have your family watch it as well. The family even of itself has had these roughest challenges. Such a nice person, at least a great co-worker, a nice guy who is going through his own stuff. I can't help but think about how the body keeps the score. I read about so many other things about how the body retains this emotional stress. This energy, if it can't go anywhere, it gets trapped in the body. The things that this gentleman was going through in his life that I was aware of, to me would indicate, yeah man, that is absolutely the case. For so many of us that we are going through things and we don't release, we don't share the pain. We don't share the anguish. We don't release it in any way and we do everything that we can to contain it, to restrain it, to do anything, anything other than let it out. Nothing, we are not doing anything. I think even coupled upon that, going through that, trying to do your day job so that you don't lose insurance, so that you can keep trying to save yourself in some kind of way. To me, it just seems wrong. If I knew that I was headed out, I knew that I only had a limited amount of time. Even if I thought that I could beat the odds, I would have to say, I would want it to be YOLO. I'd want it to be YOLO well before I found out I was f*****g dying. I'd want it to be YOLO well before I knew I had a problem. I'd want to be living my life because I live only once, because I am only living once, to its ultimate right, to the best that I c