“Hi! I’m 13 years old. I have been sort of sad lately. I almost never read the Bible. I almost never pray. I go to church on Sunday, then go home and play Roblox. I feel so lost when it comes to Christianity. I have been having doubts and fear, and as a Christian it’s scary to have doubts in the first place. I feel bad about myself all the time, because I am not enough for God. That’s what I tell myself, at least. I even recently have been feeling like I am transgender, and want to be a boy so much. I am really scared to share how I feel though, and don’t really want to be trans or feel trans in the first place. For me, having doubts is scary. I feel like I am not a functional Christian. I feel like there is some rubric I am not following, one path to righteousness that I can’t seem to grasp. What do I do? One of the things that made me start feeling this way was my old church’s youth group. When I graduated from the 6th grade class into the 7th-12th youth group, all the kids seemed to instantly be best friends. They all wanted to hang out on the weekend, loved similar things, and seemed like perfect Christians without doubts at all. They read their Bibles, they prayed, and I struggled to do that at all. I started comparing myself to them, and that’s when everything went downhill. We ended up changing churches, and the one I go to now is an Episcopal church! I like it much better! I still remember the youth group girls though. So perfect and simple. I was weird, had doubts, and wasn’t perfect or simple. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to slip away from God. I don’t want to be a failed Christian. I don’t want to tell my parents how I feel. I don’t know what I want to do, other than play Roblox. I don’t know if there is anyone who will read this review, or care, but if someone does and can respond using a review, I’d love some help. Please pray for me, and I’ll try to pray for you as well. Let me just work up the courage. Will I ever be normal? Will I ever be a good Christian? Why am I so lost? I guess I’ll just try praying and see what happens. I sure hope something happens.”
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United States of America ·
12/16/23