“This is my third straight day of listening to The Organist. On Tuesday, after my first exposure, I noticed an immediate change in myself. I decided not to call in sick and actually went in to the office and did my job. The day seemed to have many deep pockets, during which I became absorbed with the fine sinew of the moment, allowing me to fully experience what life has to offer. I was less inhibited. I nodded to people in the halls, and responded to simple questions. Yesterday, after listening to the Organist, I noticed that I continued to accomplish actual work, although in my zeal I made a few mistakes. But I didn’t chew my fingernails down to bloody stumps. I simply took care of things and moved on. Isolation began to feel like a thing of the past and I wrote some fanciful, potentially erotic emails to coworkers I’ve been trying to forge better relations with, fully knowing I could regret it but thinking ‘who cares’. I also noticed memory enhancement. A full range of hitherto occluded moments of terror or extreme degradation floated past me, but failed to deflate me in any way. There seemed to be a greater depth to my experience of everything. I felt myself tasting the air. The actual air! It has a taste! When my husband got home, I recognized him. Later, I began to see him for who he is, rather than who I have nightly prayed him to be. Today, after listening to The Organist, I am continuing in this vein, straightening out blighted patterns of thought that have crippled and plagued me since my youth. My usual hunger exists but has ebbed in its painful intensity. My anger burns but is dimming. My cramped facial expressions which have kept all but the most eccentric and twisted souls from my orbit has come unclenched. I feel creative ideas dislodging themselves from the dark cavern where they’ve been trapped. The Organist is more than a podcast, is what I’m saying. I highly recommend it.”
hogsomon via Apple Podcasts ·
United States of America ·
02/23/17