In this episode I share some vulnerability as I talk about a personal dilemma I had to face at this time in my journey. I question my pathway in life and relate my emotional rollercoaster I endured after discovering I was pregnant in South Africa with no one around me for support. I go through self judgement, denial and fear as I consider my dilemma in a country just emerging from apartheid, and people still had their views and morals embedded inside them from childhood. How do I make decisions in such a challenging environment? I reflect on my life as a solo traveller and consider the downside of travelling for extended periods - that is of loneliness as you meet many people but you are always saying goodbye, or just not fitting in as a tourist, an expat or as a local. I discuss my endless search for my niche as I travelled from country to country having an amazing time but still continually searching as something was missing. I had to decide whether to go to France, stay in Africa of which I had fallen in love with the continent and its terrain, its wildlife and its people, or to return home after seven years of travel. I also had a very pressing timeline to make that decision.......  I reflect on sometimes it is not for what we search but it is who. Sometimes the seemingly biggest calamity in your life ends up being your biggest blessing. Never knock back opportunities as you never know what doors will open and what pathways will be revealed.  --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/justine-murray0/message