“Thank you Amy for these Monday podcasts. I just wanted to show my gratitude for helping me emotionally and mentally sound. Well at least I’m working on being mentally sound lol.
I have been going through some traumatizing losses since early 2022.
It started out with EDD when I was receiving unemployment benefits, they claimed they overpaid me which is not true. HOW could that be so? I’ve always worked since I was 16 years old, I recently was just out of work for 2 years 2020-2022????? SO NO! But they put a judgement lien on me for $4k but because they took all the money out of my bank accounts AUTOMATICALLY, without prior notice, they drained both checking and savings all the way to zero balance. Left me without a penny. They took out $10K not $4k!!!!!
I didn’t know what I was going to do about bills and rent and just live. Since I was still not working at that point. From what I understood they can only take percentage of my EARNED INCOME. So that’s means only if I was earning a living at 20% but they cannot take all of it. At that time I was too weak to fight back. I started going into a deep depression from that point on. Then we found out my uncle (mom’s only brother) whom I was very close with; has stage 4 pancreatic cancer. I helped take care of him and taking him to doctor appointments. Then June 2023 he passed away. 10 days later, one of my bestfriend died from kidney failure, then my mom passed away 5 months after that (Dec 2022) then as if that wasn’t enough; my live in BF Daniel of 3 years, broke up with me first week of Dec 2022, I was really devastated, so I decided I really needed to be with my dad in the Philippines. I arrived to the Philippines in January 2023 and after just 1 month my eldest sister, whom I haven’t seen in 40 years gets really jealous of my relationship with my dad. She kicked me and my dad out of the house which my dad had fully paid for, and a brand new SUV which again our dad had fully paid for.
My dad and I stayed at my mom’s cousins for the next 4 months until we were able to get a plane ticket back to US.
One week after We arrived home in America, we took my dad to Kaiser, only to find out he has stage 4 Lung cancer. Although Daniel and I were broken up, we both remained in contact regularly over texts and calling each other daily. Upon my return home in April 2023, Daniel and I kept seeing each other, he even stayed the night and sometimes the whole weekend. He was even helping me financially until I found a job and got back on my feet again. But after about a month, That’s when I found out Daniel was already seeing someone else since Feb 2023!!!!, BUT not one word to me about it. The bastard was coming over and spending the night with me, being with me sexually and calling me & texting daily???? He gave me hope that we were working towards our relationship again. Daniel won’t even speak or have any communication with me and ghosting me even. Finally I received an email from him last week only to tell me that he’s getting married and starting a family!!!!! What a blow to my face. He’s 54 years old and this woman just turned 30 in August!!!! My heart was just shattered into pieces and I wanted to end my life. With my loved ones gone and dad is terminally ill. I couldn’t see the point of living.
I’ve just been getting kicked to the ground financially, emotionally & mentally.
Then about 3 days ago I stumbled on your podcast. Desperately trying to find an answer as to why this is happening to me? Between listening to your podcast, continually attending my church & Bible study group weekly, and God’s grace, I’m still here breathing and writing a very long (maybe unnecessary rant- so I’m sorry) somewhat of a review. Just to say THANK YOU from the bottom of what’s left of my heart, for helping me pick up my self little at a time, day at a time.
Sincerely,
Lara M.”
Lara197212 via Apple Podcasts ·
United States of America ·
09/18/23