“To the sibling narcissistic abuse I suffered from my covert narcissist older brother and is really helping me heal. I began my childhood as a truth teller but was very quickly given the role scapegoat by my brother and enabling parents, who I realize were also my brothers victims.
I would really love to listen to an episode of Pseudo Personalities, how they’re created from an early childhood, and if it’s ever possible to discover your real personality if you were never given a chance to develop it because the abuse started as early as you can remember.
After 41 years, I’m only now discovering how traumatized I’ve been because the abuse was normalized by kindergarten. I dropped out of college even though I was a bright learner, I was institutionalized the first time when I was 27 after a toxic marriage ended and because I was drinking heavily and self medicating, then for the next 15 years it was toxic relationships, drug abuse, and bad life choices.
Luckily I had a son from my last toxic marriage, my husband died of an overdose, and the trauma from his death got me Institutionalized 2 more times but ended in extensive trauma therapy. My son was my reason and motivation for healing my mind and emotional health. Now we’re almost completely reclusive cat people, I work from home, he’s 12 and autistic.
I unschool him at home now because the toxic education was murdering his self esteem. It took me 35 years to finally learn how to love myself and know my own worth and I was gonna be damned if my son ends up becoming like me. His curriculum is whatever he is passionate about but he is required to prioritize his mental and emotional health. I tell him every day to love himself and that being autistic makes him more, not less.
My brother is completely cut off from my life and his but we are very close to my older parents who I care for and have given emotional boundaries where my brother is concerned. He’s currently ghosting them though so it hasn’t been an issue in a few years.
Thank you so much for the work you’ve done. 🫰”
Scapegoat Sister via Apple Podcasts ·
United States of America ·
07/07/22