This episode fills me with conflict. It's heavy and celebratory all at once. A year ago today I came very close to losing my partner, the most important person in my life, Gabe due to a health scare called Dieulafoy lesion. (accoording to Google: an abnormally large artery (a vessel that takes blood from the heart to other areas of the body) in the lining of the gastrointestinal system). Today I have Gabe safe in my arms but I still live with the fear I had a year ago today when I almost lost him on his birthday and our wedding anniversary. People always check in with someone who has gone through a medical scare, and rightfully so but often times the family and loved ones who have been on the other side, the caregiver side, the ones who were awake for every scary moment don't get asked how we are healing?  We are told to stay strong and praised for it, but those voice go quite when we need to wrapped up in softness for ourselves. I hope I'm not alone in this. I can't be. So, if you are finding this and you needed it too, I'll do the scary thing and talk first. We can do hard things.  Thank you to everyone who has helped,  sent prayers, sent vibes, gave money, lifted us up, and held so much space for us to heal and continue to heal. I love you.  I hope this helps you in some way!  If you have any stories you want to share about post show blues, how you cure them, your self care, or a any general topic about loneliness to contribute to the conversation, please email me here: [email protected] Intro/Outro Song from YouTube Audio Library: "Sunset Dream" by Cheel My little corner of the internet:  Instagram: @emilymartinezofficial Home Decor Insta: @TheWholeBeingHomeThing Youtube: youtube.com/emilymartinezentertainer