Our letter writer expresses she couldn't to relate to Benjamin, even though both of them were no stranger to vicious splits, when he went through his most recent heartbreak, even if Walter very much wished that she would take some of the burden off his shoulders. She tells about how it all ended with Lief (badly) and how it almost happened to her with Ronin if not for his resolve. She explains why she hasn't been there for Benjamin through it all, even though she still cares.  Lyrics at the beginning are from the song, "Take Me Out" by Franz Ferdinand.  Stay tuned for Chapter 6, when we get all the sordid details about Leif, their terrible marriage, and what finally convinced her to leave him for good whether Benjamin was in the picture or not.