Our narrator discloses in her letter that the blame for her own happiness lies with herself ultimately, but we learn here about a couple of tragic yet important relationships-- Boris, an ex who simply wasn't a good match, and Katrina, a very old and very troubled friend that Benjamin had also been acquainted with at some point. All this leads to meeting and marrying Ronin, only after years of giving life a try in Seattle, where she had lots of fun but experienced no sense of permanence, and was forced to move back home nearer to family. (CW: drug abuse, suicide, pornography) Lyrics at the beginning are from the song "Wannabe" by Spice Girls. Stay tuned for Chapter 4, when we hear every detail of her relationship with Geo, from beginning to end, and how it seemed for a short while that everything between she and Benjamin would tie up neatly and make perfect sense if her plans with Geo had worked out, which as we already know, they did not.