A long, heartfelt letter is begun to Benjamin, and we find out that our narrator is living abroad in a lonely place far, far away from all of the memories she describes as she's writing to him. She speaks of dreaming strange dreams about Benjamin, and how little hope she has of reconciliation with him. It is unclear the nature of their relationship, but it seems warm and quite romantic, even if it did end badly. Our narrator describes how recording her dreams and doing free association journaling was recommended by her therapist, whose methods seem offbeat, but seem to be getting somewhere, as she begins to delve into Benjamin and her shared past.  Lyrics at the beginning are from the song "The Drugs Don't Work," by The Verve. This song served as the inspiration for this first of Verna's fictional series. We hope you enjoy it.  Stay tuned for Chapter 2, in which we learn a little bit more about why this letter is being written, and more about the narrator herself-- where she is, why she's there, and some of why Benjamin matters to her at all.