This is my last episode of 2020 and it's definitely something I'm leaving in the past. In this EP I tell the story of how I became heavily religiously involved for 2-3 years of my life and the harm I caused while I was a devout fundamentalist christian. I also tell stories about the church and give explicit detail about the Religious Trauma Syndrome (RTS) and PTSD I dealt with after the fact. **Trigger Warning** I discuss PTSD, depression, suicide, etc. I end it by emphasizing the lessons I learned from this part of my life and how I regained the ability to forgive and trust myself again. This was the hardest thing I've ever had to talk about and hard is an understatement. RTS is a real medical condition and if you've experienced this, I want you to know that you are loved and seen. There is a way out.