This is part one of a series I'm doing about my journey with mental health illness. I talk about my struggle with depression and dissociation, specifically derealization. TRIGGER WARNING I speak on topics like severe depression, religion, sexual assault, and suicide. I'm doing this series because I had a recent realization that after seven years of struggling with dissociation I am nowhere near complete healing. I am now trying to be more objective with my judgements of my mental health progress; I want to share my experiences because I know I am not the only one struggling. This is part 1 of a multiple part series. I'm mainly explaining the disorder, how it felt, and how it currently feels for me. To anyone struggling with mental health, I hope this helps you and makes you feel more seen.    Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255   The Trevor Project LGBTQ Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-866-488-7386