How would your day unfold and who would come forward if you got out of bed, looked in the mirror and asked, "What stories are we letting go of today?" I recognized, I. Am. Alone. And I am not feeling lonely, not something I've experienced in a very long time. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

Realized some people consciously turn parts of themselves away in order to prevent attachment. Since I'm the level of the company I keep, I open my circle to include fearless people in order to learn and practice fearlessness. My drop drag, to slow drops is extreme self care, meditation! Come here you, sit and be with me! --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

An anonymous share, someone shared his writing with me and had impact. Going to be a rough winter, I am concerned and leaning on my positive tools... I'm curious about you- LR po box 1407 Lake Stevens, WA 98257 --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

A man shared he's seeking partnership- my body reacted favorably, these men do exist! I'm sick and it's the nyquil. LR Po box 1407, Lake Stevens, WA 98258 --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

Time crunch before I'm homeless. Jeep starter and battery a few weeks ago. Rv issues. New batteries. Looks like the starter. Oh no. No keys to hood compartment. Oh no. No mobile techs. Time crunch. Found a mechanic will get a tow. Oh no. Hydraulic jacks stabilizing system only works while motorhome is running. Fak. Nervous system collapse means extra care and I've still managed to connect with my gratitude. Would've been nice to have leaned on a partner for support and in turn I would help...

Finally sunk in, emotions are essentially a chemical byproduct of neural connectivity- men are wired to have feelings. Culturally they've been denied this part of them. I have so much compassion for you! --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

A quick share, dream thoughts a d the actual recording-.theta thoughts! Astral'gasm idea and disconnected sex. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

Mood I'm in today while integrating an ego decay- Thank you for being here♡ send a love note or appreciation or donate $ :) po box 1407 Lake Stevens Wa 98258 --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

A new poem birthed from darkness, my instincts proved correct, smoke and mirrors singed from a fire, burned are the old parts she no longer needs... --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

Realized p.i.v. intercourse, coitus, without heart connection is draining. Spending less time in my fantasy world. Now hold attention and presence with other like minded sexual emotional weirdos also seeking partnership. I believe other when he says I don't want a partnership, don't want to date, and those that can keep love and sex separate. No longer have a place in me that thinks I'm the exception, he'll change his mind. No longer afraid I won't have good sex. No longer afraid a...

Psyche, the subconscious mind sent me a song to listen to. Zero by Smashing Pumpkins. Do others get depressed around their birthday? Really can't remember a birthday I was happy to have, why do I choose as if I'm unworthy; Inner examination. "Emptiness is loneliness...and God is empty just like me." Wanna go for a ride? --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

If you haven't hear the previous episode, go listen it's brief. This morning instead of the usual desired vanilla morning sex I crave after an intense evening, this morning my fantasy is gentle, non-sexual, a double rainbow cry how others can take me to see beautiful vistas, I desire to help support taking some chores off his plate~ Thanks for being here --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

Session was another intense experience, they kept coming. Mini share. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

Wowie, not in tents but an INTENSE experience. For the mature. Part of the autism is my ability to be in and with fantasy. Connection with another not only becomes a shared experience and it shows me it wasn't a figment of my fanciful imagination! One day a gentle shared sleepy conclusion of an intense experience, until then I welcome and enjoy the experiences now. Thanks for being here~ --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

Deepak Chopra said ego stands for edging God out. I'm in a dark night of the soul this time it's around my sexual shadow. This hurts, ego is very large here. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

Refraining romantic relationships. I found a rick "Beware Advantage- if you take it, it is yours and all that comes with it. Otherwise leave it." I took it and have been receiving good or bad? It was an easy choice. Years ago I would've thought twice then blamed the thing. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

How to say you like effing a girl but don't like her without having to say you like effing a girl but don't like her...I've started to learn to hold space when a negative thought arises. You try it, some personal growth. Thanks for being here I think I lost my oy! recording- bummer. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

Witnessing the line of where I could give up. A disappointment, seconds before the phone date it was already over. I'm receiving what I am believing, at least if I continue to stay where I am at I will continue to get the same. Rejection isn't easy regardless if I'm receiving or delivering. Oddly I feel "love" rising to meet me. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

Sexless in Seattle and I'm actually ok. One said he misses what I do and do to him. Another as we transition back to being just friends said my sex was like yoga and veggies. I took it as a compliment. Some eye exercises helps me get out of the panic attack. Thanks for being here. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

Throat silliness. I lost 5 hours of time in distracted avoidance I recognized what I was avoiding realizing it was the urge to self sabatoge. He left a message he's returning soon activating an inner child, I see my coach this week. I consider this a win. A boundary I haven't crossed in almost a year. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

In a rough spot I feel like packing my bags. Title is an Iron Maiden song, some lyrics spot on. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

Just maladaptive old tools. I miss loving sex not loving it but sex that is loving. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcomingundone/support

This fantasy I have of deep connected sex with presence and awareness, dead? Sex on pause at least. There has to be another male on this planet that f***s like I do *and* desires deep connected sex with heart? A parent in hospice, part of my education in practice. My book, Anthology of cockworship 101 Swallows, I am going to another platform for readings with opportunity for live personal readings. The publisher was a scam- the good news the manuscript is done, bad news I'm out $800. I'm...

At 7:55 there is a brief noise disturbance sharing my dating disturbances. I won't talk badly about another just brief shares on my brief dating experiences. 2 irons in the fire fizzled. 1 remaining I have set boundaries for non attachment as he's not available. Play partner is missed been gone for the season and this has been a challenge for our dynamic. I went sailing and publishing a book in the formating phase- the book ;) Thanks for being here~ --- Send in a voice message:...