Do you need and/or want someone to listen to and hold space for you as you grieve/feel and reconnect with your body and emotions?  Are you tired of seeing therapists who don't ACTUALLY listen or support you?  Do you want to remember how to feel, how to REALLY exist in your body?  Do you need to grieve generations of pain and sorrow?  I can be that person for you (if it feels right).   I'm opening myself up to seeing people one-on-one in a relational-healing context.  I'm not a...

At age 18, Greg Washington had the chance to enter the NFL draft and instead chose to serve his country (USA) and go to war.  A few years of combat later, his two best-friends were killed and he was forced home by the military, he found himself drinking daily just to cope with his PTSD and TBI.  He almost killed himself but he had a guardian angel who intervened.  Since then, he's found healing and meaning. We also talk about: complicated grief; the cumulative effects of racism and...

An audio journal discussing my relationship with coping mechanisms (porn, food, alcohol/drugs, spending money, avoiding, etc.): what they offer me, how they hinder me, and how I've watched them shift. I also talk about: when SOOTHING becomes SELF-HARM; coping mechanisms as SURVIVAL strategies; FEAR of INTIMACY and touch; my Dad's burnout/depression; addiction & bulimia; binge-eating; understanding "I am my parents and I am also not my parents"; the POWER of understanding my...

An anonymous guest was cyberbullied and gaslit by students in his college for an entire year, he shares how this DEEPLY impacted his sense of safety and self! We also discuss: fear of eye contact; understanding trauma response (fight/flight/freeze); the impact of trauma; "I am a failure"; self sabotage; psychosis or gaslighting???; fear of "going crazy"; PTSD; sitting with emotions; coming out after being bullied; intrusive thoughts; and SO much more! Recorded Dec 15, 2020 &...

James W. Jesso (Adventures Through The Mind) and I discuss the potential of psychedelics for DEEP-healing, the POWER of understanding emotions. and the MAGIC of words. We also discuss: transforming a "BAD TRIP" into a life-changing experience, experiencing "I AM HOME in my body", AFTER the wave of terror, "WHAT IS mental health?", harm reduction, "these are NOT party drugs", context of use, feeling triggered, understanding emotions, being shown DEEP traumas, entheogens & plant...

Conflict is inevitable. My partner, Tuna, joins me to destigmatize conflict within relationships (especially for people with deep attachment wounds and traumas)--to normalize "sometimes it feels really hard to be in relationship (and this is how we find meaning within that)." We also discuss: FEAR of CLOSENESS, intimacy & love; crying together (healing); being HIGHLY sensitive; developing code words and unique language; learning to sit with my feelings before responding or...

Alex Benbow Carter (artist, musician) and I talk ALL things ANXIETY, depression and CREATIVITY. We also discuss: panic attacks during class presentations; SMALL talk; opening up to strangers; INSOMNIA; challenging relationships with our dads; HOW TO be an adult?; grieving death in family; health-anxiety ("I HAVE CANCER!!!" (except I don't)); parent's divorce; finding moments of PEACE; CBT, meditation, being present; trying to avoid conflict; needing to slow my thoughts down; ART and...

Christina Jumper (Pickles and Vodka podcast) and I question REALITY, spirituality/Christianity, Brene Brown & celebrity WHILE also wondering "is riding a motorcycle meditation for people who need danger to feel safe??" CW: BRIEF mention of suicide & sexual abuse. We also discuss: IS THIS A SIMULATION?; TAKING UP sssspppaaaaaccceeee; meditation or "I HATE SITTING STILL!"; RIDING motorcycles and loving it; bulimia; cannabis & psychedelics; learning to DANCE again!; ...

Ruth/Haha and I explore a challenging conversation which results in me feeling triggered (listen as we gently resolve it, through non-violent communication, and come back into a really beautiful connection)! We also discuss: playfulness and FUN; DEEP depression; hula-hooping & riding scooters; the fear of upsetting people; wanting SO badly to love and be loved; being KIND; giving advice; advocating for my needs; wearing LOTS of colours; reconnecting with the child self; "is...

In which I discuss WHY I believe that framing my neurodiverse brain and the way I experience the world as a DISORDER, a disability and/or a PROBLEM which NEEDS to BE FIXed is only ONE way to frame it (and is potentially very limiting and dangerous). I discuss: decolonization begins within (how I treat my self and my parts) (decolonizing the self); unlearning and questioning the colonial capitalist mindset; reconnecting my parts; learning love and compassion; CURIOSITY as the polar...

Shayne Dyment returns (episodes 60, 72, 73) on his 2-years-out-of-prison anniversary!  Shayne spent 22 years (a life sentence) in prison for murder, he's finding his meaning and NEW ways to express himself emotionally and artistically! CW: brief talk of violence, murder, childhood sexual abuse. We discuss: BPD + ADHD; the CYCLE of violence & pain; understanding BOUNDARIES; true crime & the FASCINATION with violence & murder; learning to be a NObody; PAIN as a teacher; ...

A BONUS audio journal in which I discuss my relationship with the GIANT beaming volcano of LOVE inside of me and how I've been taught to repress it and to feel shame about it (and shame about how I experience the world differently than other people) AND how I'm learning to live authentically and to LET THAT LOVE SHIIIIIINE! Take the mask off, take the armour off, let the love in, let love shine! I also discuss: the PAIN of being alive; disconnection + reconnection with self; autism,...

Two trans artist people talk about gender, masculinity, + processing and reacting to BIG feelings!  Jared was raised female, I was raised male; neither of us identify with our gender assignment (at birth) and THUS we EACH have a unique take on GENDER. We also discuss: Gandalf as the ideal masculine archetype; reclaiming gender; men wearing skirts; crying A LOT; gender as an expression of self; dissociation & depersonalization; gender dysphoria; puffing up when feeling scared; performing...

A gentle and intimate trip down memory lane that DEEPLY connects me with toxic masculinity (and how that REALLY impacted and harmed me).  This is me exploring what it MEANS to be raised male in a world that celebrates emotional disconnection and disregulation. Highlights include: crying at house parties; driving a friend to get an abortion; my sensitive, gentle parts not being nurtured (because I was a BOY); fist fights; a friend dying; grief; listening to inner wisdom; reconnecting my...

Part 1 of "Is This A Spiritual Awakening (or a mental breakdown)?!" (A short series during a period in my life where I am experiencing some kind of awakening/understanding of my self and the world I exist in (and aware that it MIGHT sound "crazy" to some people).  I discuss all sorts of silly/playful ideas about this idea of really FEELing everything): ideas like "maybe all this entire experience is IS a WAVE of FEELINGS and feeeeeling states?" I also talk about: CRYing while eating PIZZA;...

Hillary L McBride (Therapist, Writer, Podcaster, Magical Humyn) has a HEART-FELT conversation/connection with me about unlearning toxic masculinity (harm) and reconnecting with AUTHENTIC self (among MANY other things)(healing).  I cried, I laughed, I loved this. We also discuss: eating disorders; feminism; healing with love; patriarchy as a harm to EVERY-ONE; colonization; systems that disconnect self from self and others; therapy/counselling; understanding projections; sitting with the...

My partner and I sit down to answer questions asked via an A.M.A. prompt (on IG). Topics include: gender queer, internet bullying, sexual shame, wanting to be seen, moving across the country, laughter, psilocybin, BPD, autism, pronouns, learning to love my body, the creative process, making music, fear, not having a job, crying along to songs, and SO much more! Support Feelin Weird on PATREON: www.patreon.com/feelinweird Buy M E R C H: www.kyeplant.bandcamp.com Donate via PAYPAL...

Blair joins me to discuss relationships with our dads, being raised male, repressed emotions, cool guys, toxic masculinity, what "success" means, being young punks, the harm we've caused, unlearning bias and learning tenderness. We also talk music!, anxiety, depression, vulnerability, stoicism, feeling shy, masking fear, bullying, conflict, physicality as identity, feeling DIFFERENT, stress, aging, authentic connection, privilege as harmful for all, drinking, nurturing childlike wonder, and...

A Patreon BONUS episode (audio journal) in which I discuss SLOWING down (REST); tapping into inner wisdom; a perfect counselling experience; processing anger; and showing up as authentically as possible. To listen to more bonus episodes like this, visit http://www.Patreon.com/feelinweird I also talk about fitting into a world that doesn't make sense to me; GRIEVING my childhood; feeling perpetually dissatisfied; enlightenment; xmas feelings; shedding my defensive/protective parts; spiritual...

Patreon Bonus Episode!  Go to www.patreon.com/feelinweird to listen to every bonus episode. An audio journal in which I discuss how I process big feelings as a result of being triggered by what someone else says/does AND how I see how my projections play a part in that process. I also discuss: learning to collaborate; judging my feelings; BPD; 'feeling' rejected; wanting to lash out; non-violent communication; making space for OLD pain; learning to play again; and SO much more! Recorded...

Nic (Pynk Spots, Bitchy Shit Show, etc) talks repressing emotions, anger, disability, getting diagnosed with autism as an adult and SO MUCH more! Listen-to and/or Watch my episode (ep 002) on Pynk Spots Support Feelin Weird on PATREON: www.patreon.com/feelinweird Buy M E R C H: www.kyeplant.bandcamp.com Donate via PAYPAL: www.feelinweird.com Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Email: [email protected]    

Tobias didn't receive his autism diagnosis until he was in his 20s!  In this episode, he explains disability, stimming, masking, ableism, and his experiences and obstacles. We also discuss: sensory overstimulation; not having childhood memories; eye contact; closed captions; accessibility barriers; learning disabilities; CRIP CAMP; fear of disability; disability-first language; conversion therapy (ABA); shame; unlearning bias; colonialism; neurodivergence and neurotypicality; and SO much...

Hilary Jacobs Hendel (author of "It's Not Always Depression"; psychotherapist) explains AEDP, how emotions & trauma function, and how shame, depression and anxiety act as adaptive states. We also discuss emotionphobic culture; laughter as a defence; feeling overwhelmed & dissociated; banishing parts of the self; repressing emotions; triggers; emotional neglect; "the body knows how to heal"; creating a sense of safety; and SO much more! Hilary's website:...

(CW: brief talk of suicide & self harm) Alexis explains how white supremacy and racism has drastically impacted her mental health as a black womyn.  She talks growing up in white spaces; needing to work X times harder than white people to get half as much; and the power of collective/communal trauma & healing. We also discuss depression; suicide + self harm; dissociation; feeling HIGHLY sensitive + emotional; challenging parents; learning to trust people; embracing softness &...

James Sebastiano Jr. talks anxiety, depression, and his pursuit to understand his mental health, all of which are topics of his recent film, Chasing The Present (available Sept 29, 2020). We also discuss: panic attacks; numbing feelings with drugs/alcohol; learning to suppress feelings at a young age; masculinity; opening up to parents; ayahuasca; getting everything you've ever wanted (and still feeling empty); spirituality; meditation; anxiety as a warning signal; self-sabotage; surrender...