“I listen to several episodes of Girlscamp a day while I’m at work, and I find myself nodding my head vigorously and saying out loud “yes!” when someone says something I felt no one else understood. (It’s a good thing I work solitarily because I do it a lot 😂)
I consider my faith transition/deconstruction to be ongoing at the present moment, just not as intensively consuming as it once was when it started 4+ years ago. In the beginning of and throughout the majority of my deconstruction, I felt incredibly isolated and alone in what I was experiencing as I was attending an LDS college at the time and surrounded by people who looked like they “had it together” with the church stuff. I lacked resources and support (with the exception of a very small handful of trusted individuals). In a lot of ways, I wish I had found this podcast sooner because listening to it now, I feel so validated as realize I’m not the only one who felt the way I did/do about certain facets of the church, and in fact it’s actually totally normal! I think if I had a resource like this earlier in my deconstruction, it would have really helped me to feel less alone and to process everything. And yet, I feel like as I’m stepping into a new space where I feel like I’m truly shedding so much of the toxic indoctrination and a lot of the anger I felt for so long, it feels so relieving to listen to and feel a part of a mature and engaging conversation about a topic so complex and emotional, and that can be so triggering, with a host that can hold space for both perspectives (active and exmo) and everything in between in such an eloquent, yet humorous way.
It’s been a continually healing experience to listen to this podcast and I have enjoyed the self reflection/actualization it has facilitated for me. Within the conversations Hayley’s had, I’ve been able to find the words to express my feelings–not just to others but to myself–something I’ve struggled to do for years, but have been able to do more easily over the past month or so of listening to Girlscamp.
Girlscamp is a great resource for anyone going through a faith crisis or deconstruction looking for perspectives that are different from the Mormon church. But it’s also great for people who have distanced themselves from or left the church all together who may benefit from reflecting on their time in Mormonism as it really helps you to recognize how your body can keep the score of religious trauma and effect you presently. It’s also a great resource for people who maybe have never been Mormon but have loved ones who are currently struggling with their faith or have left the church to better understand their feelings and what they’ve been through. I would also say that this is a great podcast to listen to if you’re an active/believing Mormon looking to understand your ex Mormon loved ones to create a more meaningful and accepting relationship with people who no longer believe the same things you do. I think the topics have the potential to be triggering to anyone who has lived Mormonism, so approach the topics with that in mind, but overall I think it’s SO worth the listen!! 10/10 from me.
Thank you, Hayley, for creating this space and community and for your willingness to be vulnerable about parts of yourself that you could so easily feel embarrassed or ashamed of or bitter about, but instead you approach with patience and kindness and acceptance. Keep up the great work!! You’re changing lives! I know because you’ve already helped change mine for the better 💕”
kdwest2 via Apple Podcasts ·
United States of America ·
07/24/23