Andrew flatlined and had an afterlife experience that really shook up his Mormon worldview when he was brought back to life. This kicked off an unraveling of faith in his 40s that ultimately led to leaving the Mormon church. We talk about his leaving and reconstructing, as well as connect over losing close family members, swap mission stories and appreciate being able to relate across an age gap. This conversation meant so much to me and I hope you enjoy it too.  Try Comfort Cove, the comfy...

EFY aka Especially for Youth aka Mormon youth summer camp- let's get into it. From COWs (crushes of the week) to creepy counselors to Christian worship knock-off music being sung in unison, there's a lot to talk about. Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit...

My partner Bentley joins to kick-off our new once-a-month campfire chat tradition. We answers all your burning questions (how to start swearing, what not to bring up around Mormon family members, how I feel about the criticism for wearing a tank top dress to a temple wedding). Then things get a little juicier as we open up about how we navigate porn and "crushes" on other people. For the full work crush story, listen to OVERSHARING IS CARING. For the "Aimee episode about sex," listen to...

Connecting with Jesus was the catalyst for Nicole leaving the LDS church. After telling her Mormon story (which includes addiction, foster care & a temple marriage at 18), we dig into her love of Jesus now as a post-Mormon. I admit my own Christianity hangups and we get into all the tricky dynamics between people of Christian faith and those who have deconstructed it. Note: I know the video is out of focus :/ Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for...

We’re talking Mormon fortune-telling aka patriarchal blessings. And how, for many ex-Mormons, they were less of a blessing and more of a curse. I give a little patriarchal blessing 101, share about the significant way my blessing changed my life and then read and unpack listener submissions about the crazy things their blessings said.  Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect...

Sex therapist and self-proclaimed sex witch Aimee Heffernan talks us through all things sexual health. She answers questions about pornography, masturbation and non-monogamy from a post-religious perspective. Her openness and enthusiasm about sex is inspiring, especially for those of us with a lot of baggage (ahem, purity culture) around our own sexuality.  References:  Aimee Heffernan @aimeeheff Come As You Are - Emily Nagoski Come Together- Emily Nagoski Wardless podcast:...

When it comes to the Ruby Franke case, many of us are wondering- how Mormon is all of this? Samantha Shelley and I answer that question today from our ex-Mormon perspective. We discuss purity culture, the character of Mormon God, when "honor thy father and mother" goes too far and how we feel about Ruby and Jodi's recent statements in court. Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or...

Evelyn fell DEEP into fundamental Catholicism as a struggling teen, to the point of only wearing skirts (even to go swimming). But once she started at Franciscan University, the fundamentalism became too much. Her journey includes discovering her sexuality, being told her panic attacks might be demonic and ultimately being intimidated into withdrawing from Franciscan. Let me tell ya, fundamental Catholicism might just give Mormonism a run for its money. Please note this episode may contain...

Gather 'round the fire for some wild stories from Mormon girl's camp. These tales include traumatizing object lessons, "snipe hunting" and getting secretly stoned under the stars. And I even sing my favorite girl's camp song! --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in...

BFFs since third grade, Tanner and I experienced most of our faith journeys together. When Tanner came out as gay and then left the Mormon church, I was still hanging on to my progressive Mormon ways. Because of these differences, we broke up. Now that we’ve reconciled, we have lots to say about how the church can come in between people. Thank God we’re back! And, dare I say, more powerful than ever.  --- Support this podcast:...

TMI? Never! This episode I answer all your juicy questions and make a few confessions along the way. We’re chatting about wandering thoughts while married, my beef with progressive Mormons, making sense of past spiritual experiences and what I think about “homewreckers.” Thanks for letting me (over) share.  --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Jaci tells the whole story of her infertility journey, focusing on the faith aspect of things. We discuss how we feel about “God’s timing”, how Jaci hopes to parent outside of the strict rules of Mormonism and what it's like to be a couple of gals who sometimes need to be "humbled" by whatever higher power might be out there. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Today Ty French and I get to play Mormon bishop and, spoiler alert, we’re sending some of you straight to jail (forget the sacrament)! We read your confessions which include a steamy encounter with a cousin, a “teensy affair” with a BYU professor and sexting with the Elders. I don’t know if I’ll ever see Mormons the same way again.  --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support

Today I'm getting really real about the realities of motherhood, especially as a recovering Mormon. I talk about feeling like a failure to be properly "maternal", the strain parenting has been on my marriage and if I think I would have had kids in another life as a never-Mormon. Let's just say, I'll be having a vulnerability hangover after this one. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support

Jenna Rammell, founder & CEO, opens up about stepping away from Mormonism after years of "unsubscribing" from the many facets of it that felt uncomfortable her whole life. As a mother of four, she and her husband have found new ways of establishing spiritual rituals and meaning as a family. And, most importantly, she's living for herself for the first time. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support

Welcome to the weird world of Mormon deep doctrine! We’ll be answering the titular question as well as: does Satan control the waters? Is Bigfoot actually Cain? Do all Mormons need to move to Missouri ASAP? Oh and I discover what a T.K. Smoothie is and… it’s not the newest Jamba Juice menu offering.  I did a lot of my fact-checking for this episode here: https://mormonr.org/categories  --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support

If there's one thing post-Mormons tend to be interested in, it's magic mushrooms. Christian talks in depth about psychedelics as medicine and how they can be also be used to help re-establish a spiritual center after deconstructing religion. And, obviously, I manage to get some free therapy along the way. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support

Welcome to the weird world of Mormon dating. Bentley joins me for moral support this week because these stories are particularly wild ones! There are scripture study dates, rampant misogynistic remarks and crocs with no socks (you'll see). --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support

The Mormon church was EVERYTHING to today's guest Jenna Jarvis- so much so that she was diagnosed with religious OCD. She shares about what it was like to find wholeness away from Mormonism. Her story includes love songs to herself, a romcom worthy European summer and so much more! --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support

Happy Girlscamp-iversary! We're celebrating one year together (albeit a tad early) by talking about the lessons I learned in 2023. These range from how I've been taking care of my physical/mental health to why I think smut is necessary for post-Mormon girlies to how to grow as a content creator. I can't wait for all we have in store for 2024. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support

Except for it's non-fiction! These stories of wild things said from a Mormon church pulpit prove that truth is indeed stranger than fiction. The tales include a public admission of an affair, a self-proclaimed Messiah and a conspiracy theory against the Mormon prophet. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support

There’s nothing like working through the “Questions of the Soul” (a la Preach my Gospel) to get one pondering the meaning of existence. This week I compare and contrast my post-Mormon thoughts vs. Mormonism’s answers on God, life’s purpose and how to find happiness. It's a fun one! References: Brittany Hartley @nononsensespirituality Kurt Vonnegut "Slaughterhouse Five" --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support

My dad died unexpectedly at age 54. Today I talk about what it's been like to process his death, especially the spiritual side of it all. I also read the words I spoke at his funeral. Mostly, I share what his life and love meant to me. And what they mean to me now. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support

Finally! We’re talking ALL things female friendship, especially when it comes to mixed-faith ones. But first, Lucy shares her own faith journey and what she learned along the way. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support