Who are you, when no one’s watching?  and when they are watching - what are you trying so hard for?  Where are you lying to yourself? Craving to be understood, but fearful of being perceived?  What an oxymoron. You crave to be understood, but fear being perceived - because you believe that people won’t understand you, won’t see you, won’t get you.  And you let that matter. You let that move you.  And then you’re standing on broken legs and wondering why it’s so hard to walk.  Wondering why you can’t let another person who wants to love you, love you. Wondering why you can’t pick up the pen or the paintbrush or the camera and find the spark to light the fire.  Wondering why you’ve sat back on all of the dreams your inner self is thirsty for, but you won’t let yourself admit - because you shut the light off in the room that the child that once was you, that still lives in you - illuminated.  You told yourself you weren’t worthy. You told yourself you couldn’t. You told yourself it was too frightening.  And you believed it.  The cage is open - you can walk out any time you want.  Why are you still in there? -------  In this episode, I cover:  - How to overcome the internal struggle of wanting but fearing love, and how it relates to our ability to see and accept ourselves unconditionally - Why we do this, where it comes from - How projecting a sense of isolation/separation in your own internal pain and experience will keep you lonely, craving, and searching - Taking a peak under the hood at our own worthiness & limiting beliefs  - How this translates into how we feel about ourselves and our ability to share ourselves with the world - How to face yourself & feel the necessary feelings to become at one with your authentic self  - How to lead with an open heart in all love, relationships, and creativity - starting with the most important relationship you'll ever have (the one YOU have with YOU.)  - Breaking out of the idea that love is static - or to be feared - accepting the flux that is this life, accepting our constant evolution - Healthy communication and honesty with yourself, which will translate to others -----  IF YOU LIKED THIS EPISODE, PLS LEAVE REVIEW TikTok: butterflyfountain Podcast Instagram: @figuringshiiitout Personal Instagram: @222vgf Youtube:  @figuringshitout (Vanessa Fontana / Butterfly Fountain) Contact: [email protected] VIDEO ADDITIONS TO THIS EPISODE WILL BE ON YT!!  YOUTUBE CHANNEL: @/figuringshitout  Name: Vanessa Fontana / Butterfly Fountain  Title of Video: who are you when no one is watching? fearful of being perceived, craving to be understood.  SHORTENED VIDEO PODCAST TO THIS EPISODE UP SOON 3 -------------------------------------  Support the show