“I have been married 18 years. It has always felt so difficult being in my marriage. I always thought it was normal. I grew up with a physically and verbally abusive mother and a sexually abusive step father. When I met my husband I thought I had hit the jackpot. Not too long long into our marriage things got scary. He would complain about how I wasn’t “wifing” correctly. He would compare me to other women at church and point out how they knew how to be a good wife but I didn’t. I could never do anything exactly how he wished it. I started hating myself and begging God to help me be a better wife. I felt like the biggest failure on earth. On the outside he was so nice to everyone. Women would ALWAYS come up to me and tell me how blessed I was to have such an intelligent and caring husband. That only left me feeling more confused. Ten years into our marriage we had a child. I thought that having her would make our marriage and relationship stronger. Things didn’t change. Our daughter is almost nine now and a week ago I found the flying free website. My eyes were opened for the first time in my marriage. It suddenly all made sense but also it all suddenly became real and I realized I was going to have to do something about it and that terrified me like nothing else has before. I just asked for a divorce yesterday and now I don’t want the flame that started inside of me to die and I’m trying to figure out what each next step is so I can finally fly free. This podcast is a Godsend for sure! PLEASE DO IT FOR YOURSELF!! God made you to live a happy life, if you’re in an abusive relationship and no matter what you’ve tried, things don’t change, LEAVE!”
Chiquilla86 via Apple Podcasts ·
United States of America ·
02/07/24