My story about my father has been extremely contradicting for many years. His absence left me confused, understanding, remorseful, hurt and forgiving simultaneously. For years i didn't know how to feel and for years i disregarded how i felt so i wouldn't make him feel bad for his addiction and being an absent parent. "YOU NEED TO CALL YOUR DAD" makes me tear up just typing it, because i was given so much guilt for not being there as often as i could have when my dad was dying of alcohol addiction, cancer of the liver. I was unconsciously rebelling because no one ever guilted him and told him "YOU SHOULD CALL YOUR DAUGHTER" I ate that guilt and also missed my opportunity to be there for and with my dad and create a healthy relationship while he was alive. I've had to release so much guilt and regret for not being emotionally and spiritually mature enough to know how to meet him where he was & not allow resentment to rob me of an opportunity to get to know him deeper. This passage is just an acknowledgment of the many phases of understanding and healing i've had to do to create a healthy relationship with him in spirit. Order my book at www. CandyssLove.com https://www.candysslove.com/my-book/remember-who-the-fck-you-are --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/candysslove/message