Welcome back to the Let’s be friends podcast.  In this personal episode I give my testimony of what I’ve experienced these last 3 years of madness, and also throughout my life: 40 years of wilderness wandering. Everyone is chasing the same thing in this life.  Endlessly we look, some of us spending our whole lives trying to discover that one thing to make sense of this crazy world we were born in.  Many of us don't even know what we are searching for.  In this conversation, I candidly discuss my search and how during my life God has been testing my heart and sharpening my faith.  I go through the various phases of my “awakening” these past three years falling into many deceptions within the truther community, occult, and eventually deception within Christianity.   I discuss the biblical significance of both 3 and 40 years, tying it to God’s curse on the Israelites to wander the wilderness for 40 years in order to test their hearts.  I talk about where I go from here and what direction I will be shifting my content toward, and why I may be taking a break from social media.  Want more Let's be friends podcast? Join the Friendship Membership:  Symbolism Syndrome Radio Dispatch (2-3 monthly) Two bonus episodes a month (or more!) Monthly friendship zoom hangout Tons of behind-the-scenes videos of interviews and events Access the Friendship library with exciting articles, episode notes, and all things censored.   Sign up today and help run the show for only $8 a month! Songs played in episode Secret Meeting  (The National) Somewhere Tonight (Beach House) Outro (M83) Ends of the Earth (Lord Huron) Dosage (Kara Mosher) City middle (The National) The theme song for the podcast is DMT by Kara Mosher