This episode dedicates to Apidech or Jejay, my first boyfriend. He came into my life and taught me so much about myself. I'm mad at him but I forgave for whatever he did to me, to make me feel less of myself.  If you ended up in a relationship where you feel like you're losing yourself, get yourself out. The world is more than a man who aren't capable of loving you if you look around.  I hope you heal from the things you decided not to speak out loud. - Raki