Dr Sandy Macquarrie is an accomplished paramedic, academic and researcher. After decades of ambulance and fire service in Canada, he migrated to Australia to teach. He completed a PhD in paramedic wellness and continues his work at Griffith University on the Gold Coast. Last year, Sandy suffered 4 cardiac arrests.  We sat down with Sandy to talk about how paramedics deal with death and dying. How do we care for family? How do we care for ourselves? What did he learn from his experiences as both a paramedic and patient.