“I’ve battled depression for years and kept saying to myself, “I can fix it if I just find a man who loves me or if I just find a different job or if I just stay busy I won’t be so lonely”. I was so scared to be diagnosed with depression that I kept trying to fix it on my own. Needless to say I never fixed it. Recently it’s gotten to be the worst it’s ever been to where I was having suicidal thoughts not just once or twice a month like it’s been for years but now it was every day. I knew I needed help but so scared to be labeled as depressed or psychotic. I was scared of being committed to a mental hospital and scared to try drugs that’s going to give me all kinds of side effects and then knowing it usually takes a month to see if it even works was not very assuring. I also heard that some depression medicine make you sleep a lot or act like a zombie with no personality. Knowing all this was very scary but I knew I couldn’t wait any longer. My friend knew I’ve been battling with getting help for depression for years and I recently told her my crazy thoughts that keep recurring. She insisted that I listen to your podcast. Well, I did and I absolutely love all the stories. Yours is my favorite because it hit home. Hearing your story gave me the courage to finally make that doctor appointment and get help. I felt relieved that if they did send me to a hospital that it wouldn’t be permanent. I scheduled the earliest psychiatrist appointment that was available which isn’t until the middle of September but I knew I couldn’t wait that long. I’ve been crying everyday and even tried to hide the tears at work. I set an appointment with my family doctor and he prescribed medication. I have been taking the medication for 3 weeks and I have not had not one suicidal thought. Anyway, I just wanted to say thank you for helping me realize that it’s not normal to feel this way and that there is hope to finding a medicine that will work for me. I have to admit this is the first I’ve heard about podcasts and absolutely love listening. Looking forward to many more stories of hope. Thank you!”
Dawsonpoops via Apple Podcasts ·
United States of America ·
08/31/18