I knew this chick. She was cool as s**t. But she did some s**t that I wasn’t cool wit. What was it? Well he she cheated on her boyfriend and he was my friend. And for the longest time she made it look like he was the bad guy. That he hurt her. And he broke her heart and that’s why she was so messed up. But come to find out, what really happened was, he loved her more than she wanted to be loved. More than she’s ever been loved. And she just didn’t know how to handle it and it made her Monster freaked out. And when the monster takes over, well, look out. That’s when the human being tends to go and do what we on the outside call, “a stupid thing.” And that’s what she did. When she found out he was gonna propose, she panicked and all she could do was think about all the reasons why it was too soon. How she wasn’t ready... So she did what some narcissistic people do, and she went out to a bar and hooked up with some random stranger. It didn’t mean anything and after the fact, the shame and the guilt kicked in, and she realized she should marry him, because life with out him is better than this. So she goes back to the house and she says yes, and she has sex with him without telling him what she just did, which inevitably is how sexually transmitted a disease to him. I forget what it was, something like, HIV maybe. Of course they break up eventually, because he slowly realizes he can’t get into her like he wants and needs to be. He realizes she’s a freak. And soon day he leaves but he hates himself for it. It’s almost like he had to break his own heart cause if he didn’t, he’d end up breaking her, for the pain of not feeling loved will eat you apart. So eventually he moves on... He finds someone else to love, but in the back of his heart, she’s still there. Her smell. Her laugh. Her eyes... The inner workings of her mind. He can’t forget her cuz the heart's still in love. So he always wonders if he should go back to her. Maybe she’s different now. Maybe things will work out. But it makes me wonder... Would he feel that way if he knew what she did that day. If he knew how she f****d some guy the day they got engaged. And multiple times after that cuz she kept having panic attacks. I bet he’d get over her a lot faster, if he knew the truth. If he knew that’s why he never felt well. If he knew what she really did to him. But then again, maybe he’d be even more hurt then he is, and if he is, then maybe the truth wud cause him to become more like her... Someone who acts like a monster because of all the times they got hurt before. Who knows... I don't. I’m just thinking out loud about life, love and the tragedies and triumphs of being human. These poor humans are really messed up... *** Get all the >>>Art Stories Book, "Vol. 1 She's the One" at http://www.ArtistSarahLong.com *** Buy her alcohol ink art paintings, at http://www.ArtistSarahLongStore.com. ****@ArtistSarahLong on Facebook, Instagram, YouTube