In this episode, Joe reflects on his current state of mind and training in between competitions. He discusses his tendency to not drive things to completion in his jiu jitsu game and his efforts to improve in this area. He also explores his aversion to finishing things and the emotional import of feeling stupid and f*****g up. Joe shares his experiences of training without an edge and investing in loss, as well as his mindfulness practices and their impact on his HRV -- and how these practices connect back to jiu jitsu. He concludes by discussing the uncertainty in his professional life and the importance of learning to dance with grace through life. Takeaways Reflecting on performance and identifying areas for improvement is crucial in jiu-jitsu. There can be a reluctance to finish things due to fear of failure or the unknown. Investing in loss and exploring vulnerabilities can lead to valuable insights and improvements. Mindfulness practices, such as HRV breathing and seated meditation, can help in dealing with uncertainty and being present. Learning to dance with grace through life is a valuable goal. Chapters 00:00 Introduction and Reference to 'Time Out of Mind' 05:19 The Aversion to Finishing and the Emotional Import of F*****g Up 09:40 Training Without an Edge and Investing in Loss 16:22 Mindfulness Practices and Dealing with Uncertainty Work with me: https://www.bjjmeditations.com/schedule-a-coaching-session Train at Princeton Brazilian Jiu Jitsu: https://www.princetonbjj.com/ Read more of my work on Substack: https://joehannan.substack.com/ Follow BJJ Meditations on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/bjj_meditations/ #bjj #jiujitsu #stoic #stoicism