Connect with Mikaila : @mikaila_nyc 0:00 intro 0:12 miracles 0:32 Your journey 0:38 Tragedy of 9/11 0:52 a lesson to learn 1:03 the power of belief 1:38 a hard time accepting 1:57 feeling no regret 2:16 healing the memory 2:18 healing the trigger 2:48 the lesson to gain strength 2:55 learning to make peace 3:08 studying zen Buddhism 3:10 you can not step in the water of  a running river twice 3:28 consistently moving 3:40 survivors guilt 4:10 nightmares 4:27 to be of service 4:45 acceptance 4:55 it's in my past 5:07 having no control 5:30 learning to surrender 5:40 working on the 95th floor 6:07 working on the 90th floor 6:09 moving department 6:20 elevator stopping on the 85th floor 6:36 hearing an engine 6:45 it was as if I was on a  airplane runway 6:54 the glass in the office shattered 7:00 it was like being outside on the 95th floor 7:25 I know two people that walked down 8:05 Descending on the 78th floor 8:30 everything is OK with Tower two 8:55 Having a weird feeling 9:35 four different exists 9:50 Are you Ok 10:05 I saw the shadow 10:20 Andrew picked me up 11:15 the streets where filled with blood 11:20 trying hard not to work Barefoot 11:38 I didn't have signal 12:25 I felt like the world was ending 12:35 I thought it was a movie 13:10 on the 5th anniversary 13:50 Andrew the ferry 13:59 I take the taxi 14:18 the taxi was waiting for you 14:20 people jumping on hoofs of cars 14:47 I had an angel 15:00 59th Street Bridge 15:10 14 voicemail messages 15:15 opening in communication 16:00 Perfect timing 16:40 I don't remember sleeping 18:00 she is alive 19:19 we never lose  hope 21:00 a finger was found 21:40 healing 22:50 yoga is meditation 22:35 PTSD 22:57 Triggers 23:05 burning rubber 23:17 I am safe right now 23:35 I am safe 23:47 constant exercise 24:30 moving away 24:50 it became easier 25:20 severe lung issues 25:40 I ran my first 5k 28:09 research other religions 30:30 we are doing it wrong 31:25 going through your 9/11 31:48 be with your pain 32:57 the bhagavad gita 33:10 feeling lost 33:12 find someone to help 35:50 being of service 36:20 give and receive 36:50 being  Stagnant 37:20 tough love 37:30 life has moved on 37:40 your mind is stuck 38:10 flow like the river 38:50 allow yourself to flow 39:10 Navigating survivors guilt 39:30 purpose and path 39:50 it wasn't your time 41:00 how damaging 42:00 advice 42:10 we are all connected 43:10 they are with you 43:50 synchronicities 45:40 reflection 46:28 awareness 46:45 boundaries 47:20 people pleasing 48:00 perspective 48:40 You are your past 49:20 recommend zen Buddhism 49:30 you loose the question 50:45 live , laugh , love 50:55 favourite book 42:05 responsibility and accountability