Human becoming returns (maybe?). This episode is a little hi! hello! how are you! before I return from my podcasting hiatus to get back to one of my favourite mediums. I talk about God and our large self, who human becoming is and who I am now (hint hint: who knows!), how I’ve been using Instagram as my metaphorical yoga mat, capitalism, and some of my intentions for this new era of the podcast.

Hello, dear human, and welcome to the Human Becoming podcast.  It is so, so lovely to have you here. Human Becoming has been alive for 3 WHOLE YEARS. In that time, I’ve explored themes of shame, desire, sexuality, the shadow, magick, ancestral healing, somatics, money, and so much more. Wherever you are in your journey, Human Becoming has something special for you - and in this episode, I run through all the seasons and what they cover so that you can figure out where you want to jump...

I love the money magick coven. And sometimes I struggle to capture just how brilliant, transformative and magickal this work has been for me and my clients.  So I’ve made a podcast episode that is all about WHY I love the money magick coven, and why I want YOU to join me in it.

We are wired for connection. We are attachment-oriented beings. What happens when our attachment relationships are disrupted or severed? This episode is all about the somatics of attachment: how our earliest attachment strategies develop, and how to support ourselves when they get activated. Break ups can be REALLY challenging for our bodies and nervous systems. My hope is that this episode supports you in meeting yourself with tenderness, compassion and care as you navigate attachment...

Whorishness is one of my highest spiritual ideals (hail Babalon!) Today’s episode is all about my journey into whorishness, slutiness, sacred sexuality and God. If you’re a deeply spiritual being and a deeply sexual being (hint hint: we all are!)… If you’re curious about being a slut for God and the mysteries… If you’re wanting to ride the wild beast that is our reality with total approval and acceptance… And feel DEEPLY turned on as you do… this episode for you.

What’s the difference between desire and capacity when you’re dating someone new? (Or, when you’re just being a human in relationship with other humans!) In this episode we speak about the principles of capacity (what we are able to do) and desire (what we want to do), and how learning to understand the difference between the two can help us to navigate our relationships with more love, tenderness and compassion.

In this episode, I have the delight of speaking to my dear friend, brilliant artist and fellow magician Camille Bacon.  Camille describes herself as a heap of blood and bones and a hefty dose of star sprinkle,  the glitter on the oceans surface and the primordial rhythm of the deep.  I describe her as a generator of worlds and culture, a leader of the new Aeon, a beloved devotee of the Gods and the mystery, and a prolific creator of the unnameable and unknowable yet-to-be. This episode is...

This episode is about my recent decision to explore celibacy, how I’ve been feeling poly burned-out, where I choose partners that probably should just be my coaching clients, and what I’ve been learning about myself as a relational being through my recent romantic escapades (and non-escapades!).

In this episode, recorded at 1am, I speak about desire, my newfound commitment to celibacy, and how I am now devoted to remaining heart-open to finding my one true love and experiencing my happily ever after (yes, I believe in fairytale endings! and that’s what I want!)

I’ve made it a practice to notice the presence of good men in my life - one of whom is my dear friend, Tebza. In this podcast episode, we speak about men and masculinity in South Africa, what it was like for Tebza to grow up in Hillbrow and the lessons he learned about being a man inside and outside of his house, and how he is charting an alternative masculinity for himself that allows for more play, pleasure and flexibility, while keeping steadfast in his deep desire to stand up for...

In this episode I am joined by my dear friend, fellow mystic, and co-camp counsellor of Jesus Camp, Dani Bobby!  We talk about the the great gnostic truth hidden within everyday sayings like "Jesus, take the wheel", how we can begin to understand the symbolic significance of the masculine and the feminine in the bible, why it's so important to bring the body into this consciousness raising work, and why the symbol of Jesus seems to pop up for so many magicians and witches who have have...

how do we forgive our abusers? many of us have felt shamed, or moralised, into forgiveness. unfortunately, this idea that we “should” forgive others prevents us from knowing the deeply orgasmic, bubbling sensation of forgiveness arising in our being - not because we have told it that it “should”, but because forgiveness will naturally bubble up when we come into understanding our true Self. in this episode, I don’t shy away from speaking about: • rape and sexual assault • colonisation •...

Jesus, bell hooks and Aleister Crowley walk into a bar. Jesus says: “love each other as I have loved you” Aleister Crowley says: “love is the law” And bell hooks says: “it’s all about love, baby!” All of these fabulous, descended masters carried a central transmission about the transformative, revolutionary and awakening power of Love. In this episode, I talk about why - if I could have dinner with three people - I would choose Jesus, the son of man, Aleister Crowley, one of the most...

We are in the apocalypse. It is not a far off destination, something that we have the luxury to put off thinking about/feeling into/engaging with. AND What if apocalypse is not what we think it is - what if apocalypse is generative (or could be) - what if apocalypse is the necessary dark night of the soul that humanity must go through in service to the evolution of our consciousness? In this episode, I speak about trust - and what it means to lean on trust, and faith, and hope, and...

I am a love bomber. A narcissist. A gaslighter. A ghoster. A breadcrumber. In this episode, we discuss these overused terms and how they can be used to invoke the drama triangle (a model created by Stephen Karpman that needs a victim, perpetrator, and bystander in order to create exquisite drama), and how that can lead to a static, boring terrain that is no fun to date in. This episode is part cultural critique, part love philosophy, part intro to the drama triangle and shadow work, and a...

In this two-part episode, I navigate the complex terrain that men find themselves walking in 2023.  I talk about the ways that the patriarchy robs men of the opportunity to know themselves deeply and to be known, to embrace all sides of themselves - their emotions, their vulnerabilities, their fears, and their humanity.  I talk specifically about the ways that this has impacted my relationships with men, and how men are often asked to choose between intimacy, connection, and vulnerability...

In this two-part episode, I navigate the complex terrain that men find themselves walking in 2023.  I talk about the ways that the patriarchy robs men of the opportunity to know themselves deeply and to be known, to embrace all sides of themselves - their emotions, their vulnerabilities, their fears, and their humanity.  I talk specifically about the ways that this has impacted my relationship with men, and how men are often asked to choose between intimacy, connection, and vulnerability on...

What’s death to a bunch of immortal beings? Human becoming has died, human becoming has risen, human becoming will cum (many times, hopefully) again! All good death stories lead to resurrection. All good resurrection stories begin with death. We don’t know much time we have (because, in truth, none of us do!) But with the time we have… we’d like to spend it with you, dear listener. Welcome to a new season of the podcast.

Can we love patriarchal men? Can we do the work of love - bell hooks style - with men who are unconsciously upholding the patriarchy? Once, I would have thought this question deserved an obvious “no”. But through loving patriarchal men, I realise the truth is a little bit more complex (and heartbreaking). This is an episode for anyone, who has (in any capacity), desires to do the work of loving and caring for men.

we have come to the end of the road. this is the last episode of human becoming. it is a snotty, teary, deeply emotional one.  it is a poetic reflection on all the paths we have walked together, the terrain we have covered, the beauty and suffering we have seen, and all the hopes and wishes I carry in my heart for you (and the whole of humanity). it has been a gift and a privilege to share this medicine with you. thank you. re a leboga. until we meet again. if you would be so generous,...

ever get tired of bandaid solutions?  watching humans living under capitalism is like watching someone slowly get stabbed and putting little bandaids over the wounds. at a point you just want to scream: "HOW ABOUT WE STOP THIS GUY FROM GETTING CUT?!" but changing the systems and structures that allow for this constant cutting is not enough if we don't transform the underlying level of consciousness that allows for a world to be built that is #deathbyathousandcuts. today's episode is a long...

this episode is all about love. it is about readiness, and how I yearn for a love that is ready to meet me on the bridge (listen on if you want to understand what that means!). may this episode find you when you are ready to receive it.

Love's ending is painful. Whether it's a friendship, a romantic relationship, a familial tie - and whether love ends through a physical or spiritual/psychological/energetic death, it's f*****g painful.  We don't have a lot of rituals and ceremonies in this society to honour the ending of Love - to honour our grief, our sadness, our pain, our anger, our confusion, our frustration. Our ceremonies and rituals become vilifying the other, playing "who will win the breakup" or "move on" first, or...

This episode is all about feeling like a failure. I feel like a failure very often, despite how much or how little I judge myself as doing, and I've come to realize that this is just another annoying side effect of growing up under capitalism. Oh well. In this episode, I speak about how I relate to this voice in my head, how it shows up NO MATTER what, and how ultimately I think I want to recognize that this voice will show up every once in a while, and it... doesn't have to mean anything at...