**Trigger warning: eating disorders.** For the first time, Marissa tells the story of her eating disorder, from its troubling beginnings 11 years ago to the present day.  In this timeline of events, Marissa shares the moment she realised she was in crisis, hitting rock bottom (multiple times), what was truly going through her mind, the challenge of getting help, and the rollercoaster that has been her recovery. We'll be blunt; this episode gets very heavy... but we hope you give it a listen.