I share an epiphany on a thought at last jelling in my mind about taking command over the way I respond to my outer environment or even my feelings.

I share some of my experiences in group therapy.

the IRS still has not given us a date for SSI and SSDI beneficiaries and I have spent three days trying to manage my anger. I will manage it no longer I will speak out and I hope others do as well. we were told we were lied to by omission and told that we were going to get our third stimulus check the same we were going to get our second and first ones we never did. my wise mind says this is wrong and I should not sit still for it.

Today's is like an informal progress report and journaling blog sharing post. Sometimes I want to simply tell it like it is.. I mentioned what is often involved in my process - learning from others online.

it is being able to have a sane attitude and behave in a sane way even in seemingly insane thoughts and emotions.

In our culture in America we often invalidate ourselves and one another in the name of gratitude. I don't want to stay angry or in emotional pain forever but I still want to validate when I'm experiencing.

and how I'm surviving in it.

I describe how I'm coping with the delay in getting my stimulus check.

The answer may surprise you. I share my experience with agoraphobia and social anxiety and I realized what I was really afraid of. Are you afraid of the same thing?

What will snap you out of a crash or out of limerence is when the person that you are interested in ignores you and you have no choice but to pursue them and disrespect yourself. If you respect yourself and them, you will not do this.

the virus is deadly and we still need to continue following our guidelines. I wonder still if our reaction to it physically and psychologically is what's killing us?

my theory my opinion my process but I believe it's true. think about it and search your feelings. when we live in an environment and have an internal belief system that we can't get on we will turn to our drug of choice!

I give a short minute pep talk on how destructive one way love is.

what people do to get attention these days...

So that she can look after me.

My lover gave me an ultimatum last night which brought me up short.

I share about how destructive and toxic it is for someone to assume how we are feeling and decide for us without any benefit of the doubt how we are feeling or thinking.

only to share my own experience with mental illness.

I share an update on my celebrity crushing and maladaptive dreaming issues in the behavioral module of my process

what is going on?! Viruses mutate. These variants have been around since before Christmas. Now they scare us.

This is a follow-up episode from the last one that I made about transgressions. it's the truth that I really don't know what to believe anymore about celebrities or about people in general. I have canceled myself and others to use their feelings as their guidance system together with logic to create a wise mind to draw their own conclusions because we don't know what to believe anymore sometimes. As Obi-Wan Kenobi told Luke, "many of the truths we cling to depend greatly upon our own point of...

I describe disillusionment over my latest celeb crush. https://anchor.fm/carol-e/episodes/Maladaptive-Dreaming-and-Decompensated-eq69vj the link is an earlier episode where I discussed celeb crushing and how it could affect our lives.

if you cling you will have to let go in a much more humiliating way.

I shared before that self-hate is life-threatening. Learning how to tolerate yourself and survive toxic situations and especially to get away from them will save your life. And if you can't get away learn how to protect yourself. You deserve to feel safe and you deserve to be happy!

I share an idea to trick the brain's "reward system" into believing that it's being satisfied.