As a midwife with zero history of mental ill health, Caitlin didn’t expect to develop severe postpartum depression and anxiety at all, let alone after the birth of her second child. She certainly didn’t expect to be wheeled through the same hospital where she worked down to the psychiatric ward for an eight-week admission. And of course she never expected that electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) would be part of her story to treat her treatment-resistant depression. In this poignant episode, Caitlin takes us on her unexpected journey of experiencing mental ill health for the first time in motherhood, of navigating the unfamiliar mental health system to receive the right diagnosis and treatment, and of confronting nearly every taboo of mental health along the way. Finally, Caitlin recalls the special moment when she ‘saw the light’, when she no longer felt worthless, and when she felt a glimmer of hope again - which, after everything she went through, was something she never truly expected to feel again. This isn’t an episode to miss. You can connect with Caitlin on Instagram at beneaththepalms_midwifery where she draws on her own experiences to advocate for her pregnant and postpartum patients in Cairns, Queensland. Please note, this episode discusses suicidality. Go gently. EPISODE SPONSOR This episode is proudly brought to you by Tommee Tippee Australia. Tommee Tippee knows that for every newborn baby, there’s a newborn parent too. Tommee Tippee was founded over half a century ago, born from a mission to make life easier for parents. For decades they’ve been designing products that enhance a parent’s intuition, and engineering solutions to make caring for babies easier, simpler, and more instinctive. You’ve got this, we’ve got you. Visit the parent library at tommeetippee.com.au to find expert advice that empowers your intuition. Sign up to become a VIP (a very important parent!) and get 15% off your first order. FOLLOW the podcast on Instagram and Facebook @perinatalstoriesaustralia for more maternal mental health stories, education, advocacy, and community. PLEASE leave a review or rating on your favourite apps or consider buying me a coffee (well, preferably a tea!) :) VISIT the website perinatalstoriesaustralia.com to share your story or to see more content from the podcast guests. MADE WITH LOVE by Rebecca (host, founder, storyteller) x