“My name is Roia Atmar, and—in my after—I made it a mission that other women find proof of their own. Proof that there is no uncomplicated route, that fear and shame lives in the most dubious of places, even still. That abuse does not end with the last lighting of a match, with the last foul insult, with the last bellow of a man—or ten—as they stand on the dusty steps of a court, the same court where women wanting nothing more than justice stand, holding space for any semblance of pride they...

“Abuse grows where love once could have. Interpersonal violence is a double-edged sword. And this, this tense and dangerous phenomenon, makes any sort of court proceeding incredibly hard. A webbed thing. The end, or so it seems, of a terrible, loveless promise.” In episode 5 Hungry and Holy, Roia tackles the criminal justice system head on as she faces her abuser in the courtroom. In a bid to protect himself, he uses his faith to distract and delay court proceedings. Roia considers how...

“Working in the sector, and simultaneously existing as a survivor, means being looked at: being perceived, even if the woman on the other end of the line, or sitting before you, isn’t aware of your past. It means being an image of recovery, whether that image feels fully-formed or not.” In episode 4 An Image of Recovery, Roia establishes a career in the family violence sector. Confronted by one particular client’s story and the way it eerily echoes her own, Roia is forced to reckon with the...

“Over the span of my life, I had to get my nose re-pierced five times. It was a no-brainer: I was obviously going to do it. And, in a way, there was something quite powerful and commanding about my body’s insistence when it came to healing itself. Just this time, they were my wounds: and the sort that allowed me to bedazzle myself, time and time again, bleeding but adorned.” In episode 3 Bleeding but Adorned, Roia delights in all of the small, but significant ways she is able to reclaim her...

What does my ‘after’ look like? How did my story begin? Tender is a thoughtful podcast series about what happens when women leave abusive relationships. The first season of Tender followed Madison’s journey of self-discovery and growth after an abusive relationship, zooming in on the small, soft details. Tender started where the story seemingly ends, at least in how domestic abuse narratives are often conveyed. It has been two years, and in that time domestic abuse has remained a...

In ‘I Have No Other Name’ (#EP10), Madison performs live at Loop Bar and Project Space in Melbourne to celebrate finishing season one, as well as announcing her new partnership with Broadwave.

In ‘Who’s That?’ (#EP9), Madison attempts to tick off the three stages of emotional recovery, and wonders if it’s time for her to embark on the rest of this journey alone.

In ‘Lightness, But Never Forgiveness’ (#EP8), Madison wonders why she continues to have bad dreams about Theo, assuming that it has a lot to do with having never received an apology from him.

In ‘Our Place to Run Amok’ (#EP7), Madison adopts a large dog named Fil, and finds solace in her local dog park. Also, Facebook’s ‘On This Day’ function taunts her, forcing her to remember sad memories… draped in confetti.

In 'Scorched Edges' (#EP6), Madison bumps into a familiar face on Brunswick Street, and discovers that Theo has a new girlfriend.

In ‘A Multiple Choice Quiz' (#EP5), Madison talks about starting a new life in Collingwood and trying to act the part, hoping that she'll just forget about the past and move on.

In ‘How to Stop a Gas Fire’ (EP#4), Madison discusses what speaking out publicly about abuse looks like: the good bits, the bad bits and the really, really ugly bits. The music listed includes Artificial Music’s ‘That We’re Not Alone’, ‘Ambient Ambulance’ by Jingle Punks, ‘Resonance’ by Myself, ‘Candlepower’ by Chris Zabriskie, ‘Be Yourself’ by Poolz, and ‘Funkorama’ by Cold Funk (Kevin MacLeod). ‘How to Stop a Gas Fire’ is produced, written and hosted by Madison Griffiths, featuring India...

In ‘The Secret’ (EP#3), Madison discusses why—and how—poetry became a New Years resolution of hers, the weight-loss industry, and the mechanics of grief. The music and audio listed includes Olivia Gatwood’s poem, as recorded by Button Poetry, titled ‘Alternate Universe in Which I Am Unfazed by the Men Who Do Not Love Me’, royalty free tracks such as Joakim Karud’s ‘Day After Day’, music from the Marching Dixie Saints, AK’s ‘No More’, ‘I Dunno’ by Grapes, ‘Silent Partner’ by The Woods, ‘Smile...

In ‘You’re at a Party’ (EP#2), Madison discusses late-night slumber parties, downloading Tinder, and gatecrashing parties with her close friend, Lachie. The music listed includes royalty free tracks such as Liam Thomas’s ‘A Touch of Light’ and ‘You Should Stay’, Peggy Lee’s ‘Ain’t We Got Fun’, The Urban Symphonia’s ‘Unicorn Heads’, AK’s ’52 Weeks’, Kozmoz’s ‘Stardust’, Blue Skies’ ‘Anonymous’, Joakim Karud’s ‘Dreams’ and ‘Road Trip’, Beyond Dazed’s ‘Broke For Free’.  ‘You’re at a Party’ is...

In ‘Boundless’ (EP#1), Madison reflects on the night she left… two days before Christmas in 2015. Shiranee, her mother, chats to her about what it’s like to be a parent in this situation: when you know that something awful is happening, but you can’t do anything to stop it.  ‘Boundless’ is produced, written and hosted by Madison Griffiths, featuring Shiranee Griffiths and the support of Paul-Mikhail Podosky.  The music listed includes royalty free tracks such as Frank Sinatra’s, ‘O Come All...