I AM > i was INTRO: Hey what’s up guys!!!  Welcome back to my podcast YeahWhyNot.   If you like what you hearing right now  Don’t forget to subscribe like share and comment. I really appreciate your support. MAIN TRANSCRIPT: I Saw a meme a couple days ago.  It’s like a girl with a confused face and a lot question marks  and it said that it’s already the end of 2021?  I’m telling ya it’s me. Omg it’s so fast !  After a few days it will be 2022.  I wanna say an early Happy new year to you guys  I wish you all the best ,live a fullfilling life in 2022, achieve your goals and remember i’m here with you.  Today this episode will be the last one last episode of 2021. This episode will be like summarize my whole year 2021. This year has been great and at the same time, there’s a lot of tough time for me.  It’s kinda stressful but i learned a lot, and i have gained a lot of things i really appreciate everything i have right now.  I’m really thankful to all the people including you guys.  Yeah so it’s kinda like a year episode related to  what i have been thru and what i have learned. And we gotta keep going cuz time will not wait for anyone.  Before we start this episode’s topic i wanna talk a little about the title  I AM bigger than or stronger than whatever you call it i was.  Actually the title i got inspired by an album.  It’s an album by 21 savage . He is a great rapper.  If you are interested go check him out. Aight first i wanna talk about....     Let me tell you this whole year ,  this year is much different from last year 2020, even though it’s still in pandemic,  there’s a such huge difference between this year and last year  like 2020 is a totally blank paper for my memory  i literally don’t remember anything except i met my girlfriend last year it was probably one of the most beautiful and amazing time in my life  but other than that nothing else i remember.  So it was super fast for me,  now when i’m looking back the most things i remember was in 2019.  What happened in 2019 seems like just yesterday  and my brain just skipped 2020 automatically cuz for me most of the time i was quarantine at home.  And In the end of 2019 i made a lot of friends  and we were travelling and hanging out.  When i talk with them right now  we are like yeah that was really fun i hope to see you guys soon again but it’s already 2 years ago when i’m thinking about it right now  it’s like yesterday not long time ago.  Because after that i didn’t do a lot of things  and suddenly boom it’s now already the end of 2021.  This how i think about this two year.  But 2021 is a little bit different it’s not like nothing happened.  I can feel myself learned a lot in this year.  Especial mentally.  The first three months of this year from January to March it was probably the worst time in this year  cuz i was super anxious and stressed out  i feel like every day i was over thinking and worried about a lot of things  especially my future.  Cuz at that time i was in the last semester  before i enter my last year of university.  The anxiety controlled my brain i feel like  i didn’t learn anything for this whole 3 years, and i’m not good at my major i don’t know what i will do after i graduate  and i don’t know what will happen and what to expect, my whole mind was super negative.   It was really tough for me ,  and also because of this during those time me and my girlfriend were  always kinda arguing or we both were not in the mood to talk. And later i calm down a little i just realized that my life was in a mess. My study my relationship and so on ...   So i started to reorganize my life explore my self ,  i felt the pain i felt the anxiety i felt the fear inside of me, i felt all the emotions. And I don’t know what to do with them.  They are making me feel weak and hard to breathe.  So i took the advice of my girlfriend to read some books.