“This happened to me when I was 4 as well in 1985. My mother was murdered in front of me by her boyfriend in the Bronx, NY. My brain blocked everything out and all I remember was all of the “nurturing” things that I thought he did for me like buying me food, however, when I requested the grand jury testimony that I did, I testified that I saw the murder, but I don’t remember today. Our brains are amazing at how they block trauma. However, I went through a very traumatic experience at work 2 years ago, which my brain recognized as the same feelings of fear, betrayal, abandonment and anger that my 4 yo brain blocked out and it threw me into the fulls throws of PTSD as a 37 yo woman. My grandmother also raised me. I was fearful my entire life of her murderer that I put away. He got 25 year to life with the possibility of parole and I’m proud to say that I go before the parole board every 2 years as of 2014 to prevent that from happening. This story could be my life, literally. I would love to heidi if at all possible. She can be vulnerable to ptsd even as a grown woman. My email is Kindness.Klan@gmail”
MindfulMama81 via Apple Podcasts ·
United States of America ·
10/16/20