Went to New Jersey to interview Sara who lost her dad, Kurt Kelly to cancer. Sara had to watch her dad suffer for a really long time. One thing we talked about was how she knew her dad was going to die, could be any day, but when it happened, she still wasnt ready. Nothing can really prepare you for the emotions and feelings of losing a loved one that is so close to you. Sara was also physically shaking a lot through this podcast because she has not talked about her story. Which is silly with...

On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason talks with Jana White.  Jana has been a high school psychology teacher and cross country coach for over 20 years.  She has trained as a triathlete for most of her life and completed an ironman.  Jana is a badass.  In 2014 Jana lost her father and mother, Hubert Issel and Alana L. Uibel to a side by side accident.  Jana's son Cooper and niece Evelyn were also involved in the accident.  Jana worked as an EMT prior to the accident and talks to us...

"You may not be responsible for getting knocked down. But you're certainly responsible for getting back up." -Wally Amos Seth Gehle was not responsible for his dad being in prison after trying to kill his mom, his mom being a drug addict and having addicts come and go as they pleased in and out of Seths house and bedroom. Seth found comfort in a adult friend who provided attention, food, shelter and safety.  And then this adult "friend" ended up sexually molesting Seth over 300 times as...

This month is National Child Abuse Prevention month. Zeke Pike is 6'4 and has lots of muscles, he was one of the top football recruits in the entire country going into his senior year. Could have gone anywhere, chose Auburn because Cam Newton just won the National Championship and Heisman trophy when Zeke was deciding where to go. He was told he was going to be the next Cam Newton.  Zeke opens up about how he got into drugs and self-destructed his opportunity with football time and time...

In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason talks with Samie and Andrew Hardman.  On February 10, 2022 Samie and Andrew lost their son Drayke Andrew Hardman to suicide. They talk about Drayke's love for basketball, his kind heart, the day of and the battle in the hospital while Drayke was in a coma, the Hardman's journey with grief, and what we can do to help kids who are being bullied.

Jillian Tinkel lost her husband and son in a car accident nearly a year and a half ago. She is simply a hero of mine. After seeing and talking to people like Jillian I have felt much less alone, much less crazy, and much more normal. It also kind of gave me a type of measuring stick I could look at. People like Jillian and Kuri Bolger who had had on previously, they are kicking ass. Jillian somehow is back at work as a teacher at the same school her son went before he passed away. Not sure...

In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, we sit down with Amanda Hurst.  Amanda lost her husband, Clever Hurst, to suicide on June 5th, 2020.  Mason and Ryan talk with Amanda about the persistent taboo surrounding suicide and the need to recognize signs of depression in those we care about.  They discuss the experience Amanda had being married to Cleve for 12 years, the nuances between grief and depression, and the crucial importance of reaching out for help if you're experiencing suicidal...

On this episode of the 10 Ninety Podcast we talk to Tim and Becky Graff for the second time.  To hear the full story about the day they lost their daughters you can go back and listen to episode 20.  On May 11, 2020 Tim and Becky lost their two daughters Ellie and Kinsley to a flash flood while hiking through Little WIldhorse Canyon.  During this episode we talk about what Tim and Becky are doing 4 years later and what they do to manage their grief.  

On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast we talk again with Tyson Holt.  We talk about Tyson's divorce, Tyson's decision to get sober and the importance of being vulnerable and talking with your partner about your emotions.

On this episode of the 10 Ninety Podcast Mason talks with his life long friend Tyson Holt.  Tyson talks about the experiences he had growing up with his parents that struggled with drug abuse and financial instability.  Mason and Tyson talk about how even our closest friends sometimes are not expressing what's actually going on in their life.  Tyson opens up about the difficulty of losing his Mom who felt like the only anchor in his life.  He talks about the importance of therapy and how much...

On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason and Ryan talk to Mitch Whetman.  If you haven't heard Mitch's story go back and listen to episode 15 where we first talk about Mitch's sister Whitney.  Whitney passed away from suicide on July 16, 2010.  Mitch said in the first episode we recorded with him that when you lose a loved one, "they die in pieces."  Since our last interview Mitch got married and had his first baby, and son, Nashton Bret Whetman.  On this episode we talk about the...

Mason and Ryan go a bit off the rails on this one.  Listen at your own risk.    

On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast we interview Ryan Stream.  Ryan Stream is TEDx speaker, best selling author, Veteran, and entrepreneur.  Ryan shares his story about growing up in poverty, battling drug addiction, going to war, and building his life up from rock bottom.  Ryan talks about how life happens for you instead of life happening to you.  He shares with us gifts that he’s been given that have impacted his life and people who have seen the potential within him when he couldn’t...

On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason and Ryan talk about how people aren't looking for you to fix their problems when something bad happens.  They talk about how sometimes its about being emotionally supportive.  

On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast we talk with Kelly Jewel.  14 years ago Kelly lost her husband Clint to Leukemia.  Mason and Kelly talk about the importance of talking about your grief throughout your life because the grief will be with you forever.  Mason and Kelly talk about the battle you have with hope as you're going through trauma.  Kelly talks about how the grief of Clint's passing has been on her mind more as her kids get older.  Kelly talks about the moments before Clint's...

On this episode of the 10 Ninety Podcast we interview Kimberly Howard.  On June 28th, 2013 Kimberly lost her son Keaton to a boating accident at Lake Powell.  Mason and Kimberly talk about how there's no way to prepare for grief.  They talk about the importance of feeling all of the emotions that come with trauma, life's synchronicities, and understanding that every person grieves differently. 

Lighter episode this week. Had some fun answering questions. Thanks for all the love and support from our 10ninety family!

On this episode of the 10 Ninety podcast we interview Brie Ocea.  On July 4, 2022 Brie lost her son Romeo to a drowning accident.  Brie shares with us details about the day of the accident and her experience dealing with grief.  Mason and Brie talk about the difficulties of sharing their stories to help others while also dealing with the criticism and the perception other people may have of them.  They talk about the difficulties of losing a child so young because others will never know them...

On this episode of The 10 Ninety podcast we interview Kuri Bolger.  On March 5th 2022 Kuri and her family were involved in an F4 tornado in Winterset Iowa.  Kuri, her son Brysen, her brother, and her stepfather were the only survivors.  Kuri lost her husband Mike Bolger, her daughter Kinlee, her son Owen, and her mother Melissa Bazley.  In this episode Mason and Kuri talk about the difficulties of grieving multiple people at the same time.  They also talk about how the best way to honor the...

On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast we talk with Kent and Anna Thalman. We talk with Kent and Anna about their son Seth.  Seth passed away 2 years ago after complications during the pregnancy.  6 months after Seth's passing Kent and Anna received a teddy bear and a book from Brad Behle.  After getting to know more about Brad, Kent and Anna decided to film a documentary about the man delivering teddy bears on a motorcycle to families who have lost loved ones.  

Scott Casey said he hasn't talked about his trauma in 13 years. Talking about emotions is hard but I haven't met anyone yet that has said they regret talking about them. Thanks for being on the10ninety podcast Scott and opening up.  "Of all things trauma takes away from us, the worst is our willingness, or even our ability, to be vulnerable. There's reclaiming that has to happen" -Brene Brown

Went to Texas and sat down with Garrett George. Garrett has experienced a lot of heartbreak and hardship in his life to say the least. I think Garrett is a true testament that even though life can be brutal. There is still a decision left to be made. What are you going to do about it. Garrett has done and will continue to do great things with his 90%. Thanks for being on the podcast, thanks for letting me, blue and sami stay at your place, and thanks for the memories my man. 

On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason and Ryan talk about things that probably should be left to qualified professionals.  We talk about top 10 states that struggle with suicide and depression and discuss whether there's a difference between grief and clinical depression.  If you're hurting.  Please talk to someone.   

my therapist joins me again on the show to talk about ANXIETY. Why it's good and how it can be bad. I always enjoy having Matt on. I think he knows his stuff but I see him more as a buddy than a "therapist". Brindy (Matt's Wife) also joined us as well and talked a lot about breath work and breath therapy. Thanks guys, always love having you on Matt. Thanks for all you do for me.