Episodes
Sometimes when we are actually in crisis, we are free of chronic symptoms because the brain and the nervous system are actively engaged in saving our own lives or someone else's. When the crisis is alleviated, however, it is then that many people come down with a chronic condition that holds the space for that long term panic. This is precisely what happened to Kristin. A busy schoolteacher and mom, Kristin was blindsided with a migraine disorder after her firstborn son emerged from years of...
Published 05/26/23
The number one question I get is always around the brain and nervous system and WHY WHY WHY it somehow feels "safer" to be sick than to feel the darkest of our human emotions. Today we revisit an episode from the Summer Series '22 where we explore just that. We are more than willing to lament to friends that we are "annoyed", "bummed", or "freaked out." But we are less likely to talk about being enraged, grieving, or terrified. This is sometimes because we are embarrassed, but more likely...
Published 05/19/23
What a fun and great learning experience to sit down with Phil De La Haye. Phil is an Internal Family Systems practitioner with a particular interest in the mindbody connection and chronic symptoms. He recovered from chronic pain himself, and JournalSpeak was a very important tool in his recovery. He’s passionate about how IFS can support the JournalSpeak process through building deep connection with all the different parts of ourselves, even the ones that seem challenging or harmful on the...
Published 05/12/23
Being triggered is different than being uncomfortable or annoyed. When we are truly triggered, we are brought to a place in the past when we were traumatized in some way (Big or little t) and we lose ability to control our reactions. Although triggers are normal and nothing to be ashamed of, the more awareness we practice around them the more freedom we have to affect our responses to life. No one wants to be a reacting machine. We want space to have control over the one thing we have control...
Published 05/05/23
Gigi is a brilliant TMS mind who lived through 10 years of chronic illness with no idea what was wrong with her. Diagnosed with Ehlers-Danlos syndrome at the age of 14, it never made sense to Gigi that her myriad symptoms were always being blamed on this one genetic anomaly. As she grew, so did her symptoms. She was diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue, Fibromyalgia, POTS, and others. Her worst symptoms of all were bladder pain and urgency, leading to a diagnosis of Interstitial Cystitis and...
Published 04/28/23
Migraines, as with all TMS equivalents, are a tool of the brain and nervous system to distract and protect us from that which feels impossible to handle - our daily stressors and repressed emotional worlds. This is the way TMS works. Although I wholeheartedly believe that migraines are interchangeable with any TMS symptom (back pain, fibromyalgia, pelvic pain, IBS, etc.), sometimes a symptom becomes so ubiquitous that it deserves some specific attention. Migraines are so prevalent right now,...
Published 04/21/23
Some TMS stories are so textbook they make me want to laugh and cry at the same time. This is true for Shivani's chronic pain journey. She had TMS in childhood (didn't we all?) and then it moved from pelvic issues to back pain to anxiety and back! The great news is that Shivani is pain free today, and the better news is that she is a Psychiatric nurse and will make such a difference in this world carrying the message. I'm thrilled to share her story with you today. XOOX n. Producer: Lisa...
Published 04/14/23
In the fall, Lisa and I did an episode on Ascension, and the concept that recovery is not a straight line - it has twists and turns and can seem, at times, like you are not making progress. But this is not true! Recovery is indeed a journey of concentric circles up a mountain, and if you know how to pay attention, you will always be able to identify your growth. We recently heard back on Speakpipe from Shannon (who was originally featured in the Ascension episode) with a profound update on...
Published 04/07/23
Evie's life was planned before she was old enough to have a real opinion. A child prodigy, she began boarding school for professional violin when she was 9. Although she loved playing her instrument, by the time she was 15 she was debilitated in back pain with no idea why. At first (as so many of us do) she thought the origin of her pain was poor posture or muscle weakness. After years of failed treatments and exercises, she was forced to leave conservatory, and her journey of self-discovery...
Published 03/31/23
Today we present Part Two of our Live Zoom Q&A pod! Even more great questions and answers on topics like Chronic Fatigue, keeping up with JournalSpeak even when the symptoms are not screaming, getting back to our lists, eye issues, and how to keep our mindsets in the optimal space for healing even when we've been raised in the medical model. Loved this format, and can't wait to do another! If you are interested in joining us for the next Live Zoom podcast, Speakpipe us (record a message)...
Published 03/24/23
This was such a cool and awesome experience - our first ever Live podcast. We invited community members to join us for a Zoom Q&A, and it was an impactful way to be together, connect, and learn. I love answering questions in real time with no prep - it's one of the most powerful means of carrying this message. Join us for amazing backstories and questions on childhood trauma, emotionally unavailable parents, failed back surgery, autoimmune issues, parenting, and much more! If you are...
Published 03/17/23
Gary's Long Covid really terrified him. But if we are being honest, he was terrified even before he got covid in the first place - OF LONG COVID. This is so natural and typical of what happens in human beings. We are the only animals able to anticipate pain and suffering in our futures, (pre-grieving, catastrophizing) and our nervous systems are paying attention for these consciously communicated danger signals. When Gary did indeed come down with serious symptoms that are associated with the...
Published 03/10/23
Lisa and I are always seeking to answer the biggest questions being pondered in our communities, and one that always comes up is around, "Is my symptom TMS and how it is that so many symptoms are?!" I know these are not the messages we grew up with as kids -  that headaches and backaches and nerve pain and stomach issues care all essentially the same thing, but in the TMS world, we know that it's true. The pain is NOT in your head, but the solution is not in your body. The concept of the...
Published 03/04/23
Scarlett was so distraught when she found this work. She was in her 40's, using a walker to get around, unable to climb stairs, and a failed back surgery left her with severe neuropathy and totally bereft. After finding my work through her research on Dr. Sarno, Scarlett dove in and took my online course Freedom From Chronic Pain. It began her journey, and by the time we met at a small retreat I did in DE over 5 years ago, she was able to climb the stairs and give me a hug! She went on to...
Published 02/24/23
Today on the podcast I bring to you a very personal episode about my own life, and what it means to live the work. Lately my TMS has been showing up as sleep anxiety, and it makes a lot of sense! It's an old wound (lots of childhood trauma about sleep) and I am an inherently anxious person. But when it really began to affect my life, I decided to really re-dedicate myself to my JournalSpeak practice, and everything is easing and changing. I want the same for you! Join me for some authentic...
Published 02/17/23
You know how I love my Real Time Heals - cold therapy sessions on air that get to the heart of where people are struggling. Today, Jennifer joins me to discuss her Long Covid, which took this avid athlete and triathlete down to the ground. I have been helping people with Long Covid all around the world since its inception, and I want everyone on the planet to know that this work is an option for them. Join us as we discuss brain fog, fatigue, muscle weakness, heart palpitations, and all the...
Published 02/10/23
Today we tackle an impactful and important topic - learning to greet this life with curiosity instead of fear: "wearing it loosely" instead of seeking to control. THIS IS NOT EASY, but it is everything. We as humans are such inherent controllers, wanting to be "right" or "done" or "okay". Life just doesn't work that way. Join me today with Samantha, a member of our community who sent a Speakpipe about weight, body imagine, and migraines, but ultimately was talking about how to find that...
Published 02/03/23
Today on the pod we are talking about Anxiety, one of the favorite topics of this community. When I say fave of course I know you don't WANT to have to talk about anxiety, but alas, we are such an anxious bunch. Here's why: Anxiety and Chronic Pain/Illness/Symptoms/Syndromes/Diagnoses are interchangeable. Anxiety is one of the most common symptom imperatives, and so often I hear from you guys that the pain has abated, but the anxiety is way up. Let's talk about it all today, understand...
Published 01/27/23
Marian is back! My first ever podcast guest 4 years ago, Marian has come so far and has sage wisdom for you all about how to live a chronic pain free life. This does not mean that things are perfect. It means that she has a toolkit and knows how to use it. We cover all the best practices (including how two crazies like us can meditate), and we talk about her whole journey and what it's revealed about her trauma (capital and small T), and her ability to express it in healthy ways. So much good...
Published 01/20/23
So often we feel pulled in two directions with this work: How can I unearth and reckon with the things in my life that are causing my body to channel pain, and also hold space for a positive mindset and openness to ease? A common misconception, I have found in my many years of doing and teaching this work, is that either we can't have both, or we are hurting ourselves by feeling so much heavy stuff. Today on the pod, Magid puts words to this in his thoughtful Speakpipe, and I'm here to...
Published 01/13/23
** TRIGGER WARNING. EMMA IS DOING GREAT, BUT DOES DISCUSS SUICIDAL IDEATION AND THE DEATH OF A FAMILY MEMBER BY SUICIDE ON THIS EPISODE ** When Emma and I first connected, she was requesting a RTH for issues related to Lupus/other autoimmune conditions, and I jumped at the chance to highlight such an important topic, and help her to move the needle on her healing. But guess what?? Emma dedicated herself so much to the work and the process, that in the few weeks it took to get us on the air,...
Published 01/06/23
I've learned this year that we need to get lost in order to be found. The obstacles in the path are the path. Our challenging parts of life (family, work, self-worth, relationships) are our sacred spiritual practices. Happily, all of this hard work also results in the cessation of chronic pain. What a joy it is for me to be on this trip with you. I love that I can use my own life as an example and a lesson - the best and most effective elements of a message are the most personal. I know what...
Published 12/30/22
Today as we inhabit The Holidays 2022, I bring to you a revisit of an incredibly impactful concept: Pre-grieving and the attendant anxiety and lack of presence it brings. Almost a year after it originally aired, this episode holds particular significance considering what has transpired, and the lessons therein. Join me for an important reboot of a topic that plagues so many of us, and the mindset necessary to release us from its grips. I wish you Everything Good, Bright, and Hopeful. Much...
Published 12/23/22
We received a Speakpipe that really influenced us and got us thinking. Dana piped in to say that she was experiencing insomnia and numbness after leaving her job to stay home with her kids, and also knew somewhere inside she was stuck - that her deeper worry and projection was that when she got "done" with these parts of her life, then she might actually do something that made her feel fulfilled. It's a tale as old as time - waiting to be done with the hard parts and hoping that THEN we will...
Published 12/16/22